I have lost my motivation as to why I had to pump myself so hard in the gym.
I am lost - Lost my reasons and directions.
I have been hitting the gym 5 days a week. But, who am I trying to prove? Not sure if there’s one or virtual one.
Today, while I was deadlifting, the owner of the gym came to me and asked, “So… how’s your progress? Any gains?”
I looked at myself.
“What do you think?” I directed my question back.
He scanned me in just total 3 seconds at most. I already knew what was really running in his mind. He didn’t have to tell. I didn’t have to say.
“Well…”, I shrugged. “I’ll just have to work harder.”
“It takes time, buddy.”
“I know.” I didn’t want to be felt defeated. Funnily, why did I feel like it was worst than feeling defeated?