Friday, August 19, 2016

Raw 2

Dear Zach,

Oh God! I just had raw sex with a regular guy that I didn't meet up for so long. I remember the last time I had raw with was so last year. What was I thinking?! I'm so gonna confine myself in these 3 months time for not having sex anymore. After sex, I keep probing him with question whether he has done any bareback for the last few months, any sign of frequently vomiting, fever, and any discomfort.

"No. I'm healthy as fuck." He said.

His dick seems to be clean without any sign of infection. Feeling guilty. Maybe I am being paranoid?

Wednesday, August 17, 2016


Dear Zach,

It's true the fact that when you try to think with your dick, everything in your own principle would go haywire. I'm always a person who cautiously play safe when comes to sex. When being suggested for raw sex, I'd decline that offer. There were times I found myself guiltily breaching my orifice with some raw action. Albeit it was less than 30 seconds of unprotected intercourse, I would feel guilty as fuck the next day. Having that being said, these two guys I have raw are some regular coincidental bump-up. 

The first one was few weeks back in the swimming pool shower room I usually go to. As usual, we both knew what else to do when either one of us is in the shower room - we got down dirty. He was being suggestive by poking his cock at the entrance of my anus, I obliged by perking my ass to welcome him. I thought it was fun to tease him that way. In just one swift move, he has plunged into me. I didn't protest. But he pulled out quickly as if realizing it wasn't right to do that. But that's too late to realize that. 

The second one was happened today. We both bump into each other occasionally in the gym. Whenever that happen, we would always do naughty stuff in the shower room, there would be our casual spot. Today, we both agreed to meet up in the gym shower room earlier than usual. We made out, suck each other. When he turned me around, my ass facing his face, he rimmed me hard. Then he tried to enter me with his hung cock. I didn't resist. He entered smoothly and humped me for a few seconds and pulled out. 

I wouldn't say that I trust them the most. There's a risk I would have to bare. If a less than 30 seconds of bareback would get me in trouble, then my life would be fucked.  

Tuesday, August 16, 2016


Dear Zach,

It didn't take long enough for my co-workers to figure out about me when one of them is good at prying info out of somebody. She asked me when I was having my dinner in the pantry, "So do you have girlfriend? Hang on! Are you gay?" I did not instantly protest. In fact, I let the silence fall. I did not answer to her question. I turned the question back to her, "What do you think?". With that, I'm highly suspicious to her. Within days, seemingly everyone at the front desk knew about it - thanks to her fucking unzipped mouth. They seems fine with it even though they highly think I'm, in fact, gay. But they wanted the truth out of me. That to reassure their suspicion is true. One of them trying to test the water but to no avail. One of my co-workers, a malay woman, whom she looks so conventional in terms of dress code, surprised me with a question "Are you gay?". She asked in hushed voice.

"What do you think?" I asked her. 

"I'm fine with it. Don't worry about it. If you are gay, then be it. No point hiding." She said nonchalantly.

"Then yes. I am." From there, it seems to have brought us closer as she's the only one who knows about me. We talked a lot even though we have sort of different dialect. But I'm glad she's very accepting in this sense given the fact that she's a full-fledged Malay. 

I'm pretty sure one of the male trainers knows about me. Because our conversation has been lessen and he seems to have avoided me in engaging any conversation whenever we were alone, in which I couldn't be bothered about that, I'm not much a talker either. 

I'm not afraid of people knowing me. But I do respect people who respect me in terms of my sexual orientation.    

Wednesday, August 3, 2016

Month Of Augustus

Dear Zach,

Starting anew is somewhat refreshing yet disturbing. But it gives you hope - a hope to start afresh in your life. Drop down the old bad habit, move away the trash under your bed, leave behind the dirty trails of bad memories, forget and forgive people. God know it ain't easy job to carry out but one has to, especially when comes to forgiving. It takes ample of time to change all aforementioned, it's possible to be done not within short period of time. 

It's a new month with new job. I've decided to make changes to myself, partly for my job's sake, for my own good. I can't help but to realize that the next 4 months will be rolling in as fast as blink of eyes. And I also can't help but to realize that I did nothing significant for the past 8 months but to have gained significant experiences in quitting my job, rewriting my resume, and seeking for job. I hope it won't repeat again. My mum even warns me not to give up on this job so soon. "Quit again, you are out of this house." she said. 

My new job is good. My manager said to me that the only thing I need to do is to get fit to get client. Simple as that. I've been eating a healthy diet for the past 2 weeks. It's quite tough to make changes in terms of diet. But these changes are necessary. But working hard in the gym, and eating hard in the kitchen. Hopefully, by end of the year I would be in great shape. 
© Dear Zach
Maira Gall