Sexual Health Screening Got Rejected Due To Budget Cut

Dear Zach,

This morning I was so ready to go to Klinik Kesihatan in Putrajaya Branch Presint 18 for my annual sexual health screening checkup for free. I went there early morning to avoid crowds. I went for registration and told the officer that I wish to have my sexual health checkup. 

"what's the purpose you want to do this checkup?" She asked.

I was a bit perplexed. She saw my confusion and continued, "For marriage purpose or what?" 

"No. For personal reason." I said. She then further saying that they don't provide screening for personal reason and shit only for marriage purposes are allowed. Then a higher level of officer stepped in and overhead our conversation, he then gave a greenlight for further process. 

I waited for another 20 minutes in a hall full of Malays. I feel alienated. When my number was reached, I entered a sterilized room. A male officer further inquired me for the purpose of doing it again. 

This time he said, "If you have no discharge or pain around and from your penis, then probably you are not in high risk. Unless you wish to check for marriage purpose, then we allow to proceed. Unless you find yourself having symptom, having random sex with random people then we can do it for you."   

When I was about to mentioned the latter reason, he spoke again, "I don't know about that, you will have to see a doctor before we can proceed." 

So I was referred to real malay female doctor, same question ensued. Like what the actual fuck?

"Do you have pain around your groin area? Ulcer? Discharge? Have any rashes? Last sex? With male or female?" 

I answered accordingly. 

"Since you have no symptom and whatnot, we can't proceed you further screening. Not that we do not want to. I understand you wish to do annual checkup for your health status and I fully support your wish. Unfortunately, our klinik is experiencing budget cut and we have limited test kit available.You have to understand as well. Not that we against your will. We have no choice to tell you this. You come at the wrong timing whereby the budget was limited since June this year. If you were to come by next year early January, yes we could do it for you instantly. Don't feel disheartened." She said softly. 

What else can I do since they have such limited budget? 

I went home with a settled heart. Probably if I want to check, I would have to pay a hefty for it.

Should I or Should I not? 

Ass-tearing Sex

Dear Zach,

It was a sunny day. And then here comes a text in Hornet from a malay guy whom he planned to meet up over the last 2 weeks. But he then deactivated his account and, here again, one week later he showed up with a new account. His hot shot body is already a plus to want him more. I went to his place which is 15 minutes away from my place. 

He greeted me in his boxer when I arrived. We did not talk any thing further. I hurled him forward to his bed and started making out with him. His dark skin toned and his toned body already making me way harder than yesterday. I slipped my hand underneath his boxer and finding myself holding a thick clean shaven 6 inches cut dick. Today was a lucky day. I sucked his dick like I was doing resuscitation on him. My mouth was savoring each of his musky dick taste and literally deep throat every inch of it. 

He is a great top. He fucked like raging beast. My G-spot has been destroyed by his hardcore thrusting. If I were to rate his speed of fucking from 1 to 10, I would say he is 9. I moaned so loud I believed the neighbor could hear us perfectly clear. He came on me but not much. He said he has jerked off in the morning twice. We cuddled and nap for a while before I teased his nipple and dick. His erection was growing hard under my touch. I gave him a deep blow job on him. 

We talked and got to know about each other a bit. He's one year younger than me and working a barrister. When I was about to go, he gave me a kiss. But we deepened the kiss and can't get our hands off each other. 

"You want more." He whispered underneath his breath. I nodded my head and he grabbed another piece of condom and put it on. And fall back into our fav position and fucked the sunny daylight out of me. I was literally moaning for help as he embraced me tightly from my back and thrusting his hardon in Godlike speed. "You want more." His breath was close to my ear. "I'm giving you more." 

In the end, I quickly wear my pants before we go for the 3rd round of sex. I think I'm going to miss him a lot. 

I did not cum though. 

3 Sex With 3 Different Guy in One Night

Dear Zach,

Last night, my place is available from 6pm til 10 pm. My inner hoe did not want to let this chance to slip away. 

7 pm

I invited my one of my regular buddy whom I met few weeks back. He came over, I sucked him good and he fucked me for just barely 10 minutes. I wasn't satisfied enough. I called over a long-time buddy whom I haven't met for a year. 

8 pm

He came right just in time. We chatted a little and before we knew it, we stripped each other naked. He fucked me like there's no tomorrow. Hard pounding in each and every stroke with his 6 inches hard dick. Switching from missionary to doggy to missionary position. Each of his thrust sent me to sky high. It has been so long since I felt this hard poundage. We recorded our sex down. It was so fucking hot. We fucked like that for good ol 1 hour. He came hard inside of me. I did not cum yet. 

9.15 pm

This top who stays a mile away from me texted me again. We have been texting each other since last December. Because I refused multiple request of granting my face picture to him, our conversation died down again and again. This time, he agreed in meeting me without seeing my picture first. So he's taking the risk of having sex with ugly person. He sent his address and I went to his place. He was lean enough to make me hard. His dick picture did not disappoint me in real. A nice cut 6 thick inches dick in my mouth savoring his shaft. He fucked me like a donkey. We took a rest in between because his dick soften. I was exhausted because of previous 2 sex i had. We fucked like 1 hour plus. He said he could go on for 2 hours. I can't blame him because he is a endurance athlete. Normally endurance runner has high stamina for sex. But tonight he was back from a run and he cum in the morning, so he was tired to go on. In the end, he sped up his thrusting and cum on body. I love it. We rested a while and chat a little before I went back home.

11.15 pm

This top black guy hit me up in hornet. I thought he wanted to fuck. Well, I was still horny because I did not cum yet. Probably I could go for 4th round of sex with a top black guy. He said he was in somewhere chilling with his mate. So probably tomorrow. 

I went back home and cum a river. 

  

These Hoe Ain't Loyal

Dear Zach,

(I'm writing this with my newly bought laptop that costed me with dirt cheap price of RM1.7K with considerable specs and outlook. My first ever laptop that bought using my own money.)

I can't settle down yet partly due to work commitment; Mainly because I get bored easily with men.

I have a few regular sex partners. I get bored with one man. And I like to try different sex from different man they could offer. You might think I am a slut - Yes. I am a slut. I don't mind to admit it. I like to have sex with different men. Though, not every top I would prefer. I have my own choice of men to have with. As you already know, Malay guy is my top preference. I don't know why. I have been asked for this plenty of time over gay hookup apps. Asking why I prefer malay top not any other races since I am chinese. I can't answer to myself. Probably because Malays are more friendlier and good in sex as compared to Chinese. That's what I think. 

I am not loyal. When my regular hookup asked if I am seeing anyone except him, I lied that he was the only one I am having sex with. Probably I don't want him to feel bad or probably the guilt thing washed over me. I lied about my loyalty. I don't want them to think I am a slut but in actuality I am a slut. I totally understand why most gay guys cheated on each other when they are in couple. You can't deny the fact that new fresh meats are coming up better than us when we were young. Those young lads are buff and muscular and a lot of options to choose from. Guys at over 40s prefer guys less than 25 year old. Lean, toned, muscular is their top option. I ain't getting any younger. I am 24 this year. I am closing my age to mid twenties. I can't deny the fact that the imminent aging has frantically reduced my sex value in market. These young lads are seriously young, good looking and buff and it makes me so jealous of them for being young and hot for attracting guys for wanting them. 

I ain't loyal hoe. Since those fresh young lad doesn't mind my age, I also won't mind for them for being young and horny. I got to try a few young malay lad and they fuck like a donkey. It was amazing but the connection wasn't there. I understand that. Sex only. Most gay guys ain't loyal. 

Decluttering. Minimalist.

Dear Zach,

I am becoming more and more of a minimalist. 

For the past few months, I was downsizing my items. I threw away unused stuffs. I donated my shirts which had not been worn for years for charity. I threw away books I never read. I gave away facial cream like sunblock SPF 60+ to my mum to which she finds the complexion for her skin is too dark. She threw it away. I stopped taking health supplement which does nothing significantly to my health. I drink only plain water. Less sugar. Eat only veges and eggs. Avoid eating meat as much. 

I am keeping the bare minimal essential to myself. Just that I haven't painted my room in white color to further accentuate the concept of minimalist. My mum thinks I'm crazy for throwing out stuff out of the blue. I told her that I was wearing my uniform more than the casual shirt I wear when I go out. It is not necessary for keeping so much clothes in my closet as I have no chance of wearing them at all. Even if I do, a round-necked shirt and short pant would be to-go for me.

I removed a lot of contacts from my phone. Only my family and co-workers are on my list. I deleted Instagram - it's too much comparing and unhealthy to be seeing pictures. I removed it because I still can live without it. 

I literally feel so much lighter physically and mentally. 

#Throwback Post

Dear Zach,

Just want to do a throwback post.

The darkest day of my life I had ever been through.

I want to bury it. Never let it see the daylight again. But I decided that past is the past. A great lesson for me now.

Here's the post back in 2013: TWENTYSIXOFDECEMBER

Blogging is dying down

Dear Zach,

The hype of blogging is slowly dying down for the past few years. When I started blogging with this channel on 2011, most gay bloggers seemed to be engaging with blog post every single day with their life, sex, and relationship. It was a huge hype back then whereby we got to know stories from all kinds of gay people around the world as I was so fascinated by all the encounters they had been through. As I grew older, my sexual encounters multiplied. There were more to write on my blog. 

I got to know a few bloggers over the internet and we got to exchange a few casual chat, but nothing serious about furthering our casual acquaintance. I never met anyone from blog in person. I don't intend to. It was plain awkward as we both know our life has been written all over the internet. What's the point of meeting up when we both knew what's happening already?     

I never hooked up with anyone from blogger. Nor anyone who personally emailed me. I am grateful for everyone who has ever emailed to me by sending your regards. I appreciated. 

2 years back, I slowly realized that most gay bloggers I followed had stopped writing anymore. The last posts most I saw was 18 months ago. I am not sure why. Probably because blogging isn't for everyone and it was just a hype. There are only few active blogger left. Those inactive I had unfollowed from my reading list. And those gay bitches who hated me I have certainly unfollowed. 

I seriously don't give 2 fucks about who hated me over one of my blog post. I had once written a blog post and it sparks hatred against me for being insensitive. Like seriously? Should I care about your feeling before I wrote? People are just plain dumb. I definitely unfollowed those who always write about sad, depressing shit about their exes and life. As if my life isn't miserable enough already. I don't need that shit. 

It was such a shame actually. Blogging is a good platform for writing your stuff. But people take it for granted by looking for fame. 

For those who don't like to read it, I don't actually care. 

Sex Date For Now; Not Gonna Date In Years

Dear Zach,

Am I ever going to get a boyfriend? 

I don't think so. Probably not in 8 years time or so. 

At the mean time, sex date is working best for me. I don't have to worry about him cheating behind my back. I just called whoever available over to my place and fuck. 

This works best for me. I don't think dating is the time for me now. I even told off a lot of potential guys who want a relationship that I couldn't commit for now. Some I even said that I prefer sex dates at the moment. 

"okay..." they said. They gone missing then. They can fuck off actually. 

I am happier that way. No string attached. I don't believe in love anyway. So yeah.. I don't see the point of rushing into a relationship just for attachment purpose. I can't blame some people who are desperate for that. Probably because they have no life goal, aim, or future plan for themselves. So they resort to thinking having a relationship as a goal. I have my own future plan laid out and relationship is never part of it.   

As I grow older, the more young fresh malay lads are coming out from the closet and seeking for sex. I would have to keep my option open. Call me a slut. Young lads these days are much hornier than you think. I like that. Let's see how it goes.     

Malay Only

Dear Zach,

Since the beginning of this year, I have been fucking with Malay cocks only.

I strictly forbid Chinese cocks penetrated into my ass. I only suck Malay cocks. Getting fucked by Malay cocks.

I don't fancy Chinese guys anymore due to several reason:

1. They are kinda rude.

2. Mostly bad at sex.

3. They are unhygienic.

4. They are so dramatic.

Abovementioned factors had gotten me slowly changing my sexual preference to Malays. My blow job skill has gotten better when I started sucking malay cocks. Esp most malays are carrying with big cocks. That's even better. Malays are hygienic and usually polite.

Most of the time, I invited them to my house after work.

Hornet is the only gay hook-up apps I have been using over the months. It seriously gave me a wide choices of malay guy to choose to hook up with.

Though I never had a chance of getting fucked by hunky malay yet.

Desperado

Dear Zach,

There was this guy who spontaneously facebook-messaged me when I woke up one morning. 

"Hi there. Can I get to know you?"

He was cute, tall, tan, and has nice set of chest. 

"Yeah. Sure." I replied.

We exchanged few messages and I got to know that he is quite desperate to settle down with someone. We didn't chat after that for 2 weeks.

Today, he whatsapped me again. 

Again. He mentioned that he was lonely for the past few days. Settled down with busy work and finally get to realize what is of importance. And telling me his feeling toward having a relationship after seeing most of his co-workers are attached. And saying that he was a traditional guy who wants to settle down by age of 40, which ultimately implying that he should be dating by now. 

I asked him why he want to settle down so bad. 

 

I mean. You are just desperate. Enough to say. Because you are seeing everyone around you starting dating and having great relationship it makes you want one. 

I am not really interested in him actually. His desperation of having a bf is so imminent and it puts me off a little. He is a decent hot guy but if he is being desperate like now he will never get anyone. I hate desperate guy. Plus I told him my financial situation of having difficulties in dating and I have my future plans all involve money. I couldn't possibly have the time to date due to work commitment issue which is true. I work 6 days a week and barely have time to rest. And he is Chinese and I am much more preferring Malay guys. 

So yeah.. I just entertained him a while and continued browsing through Hornet and looking for potential Malay cocks. 

I prefer malay cocks. Any malay guy wanna hit me up?