Tuesday, May 3, 2016

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Dear Zach,

The sky was grey as if reflecting my current mood: empty. I woke up to the realization that I was jobless, probably unuseful, and anti-social. I felt restless, uneasy, and aggravated with the thought of sitting at home again. I refuse to go out today because my budget is running tight. Plus I have nowhere to go to. I laid on my bed, in deep contemplation, probably being a dead corp lying on bed waiting to be buried - that's what my dad said. I waited for phone call for job offered: No news. It made me even more restless I wanted to punch the cats sitting at the back of the garden. I searched through jobstreet to apply for job. One thing that I am absolutely sure that I am clueless where I am headed. Clueless about my goal. Clueless about my need. I wanted to travel to find a bit of part of me. But my bank account statement says no - I can't even afford to book a 3 star hotel, let alone to buy the flight ticket. Pathetically enough, I missed the straight guy I had sex with. I'm not sure why. I just missed him. I think my birthday gets worst by each year itself. There goes my birthday today. 


17 comments

  1. Happy Birthday. Don't get down... The right thing will come around.

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  2. HAppy Birthday Zach!!!! Things will go your way soon.

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  3. Happy Birthday Zach! May the new age be filled with more joy, wealth and health! Hang in there, i waited for 8 months before getting my current job

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    1. Thanks. I can't afford to wait that long though.

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    2. with the cost of living in WM, i don't think anyone can wait that long. why not try to do some part time work in the meantime?

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    3. I have given a thought about it. But, then, since I've applied for jobs, undoubtedly there would be interviews calling in. Not that there will be a lot.

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    4. How about some of those one off jobs? Just to help pass time and earn some pocket money/experiences

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    5. money boy? haha. that's what i could think of. kidding.
      Ya.. i might want to try to look into it.

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    6. err... mm... ah... OK... Haha... if that's what you want since you enjoyed sex? :P

      translator, garden care, car wash...

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    7. is there any website that offer part time job?

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    8. http://asiaparttime.com/

      Give this a try?

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  4. happy birthday sweetie
    sometimes we lost sight of our goals and dreams because of the burden of our responsibilities and mundane parts of life. It's a month of reinvention, a little patience can go a long way. Don't give up hope :)

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    1. thank you for your kind words :)

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  5. Happy birthday, Wish you dreams come true.

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