Turned Down

Dear Zach,

I am alive. I am still breathing. I felt like I have been missing forever. Here's an update for the past few days.

On Monday, I got a call from a company from Singapore for interview. I was completely stoked given the fact the chance of getting a job in Singapore is a rarity.  

On Tuesday, I had skyped-interview with the ladyboss. I named her ladyboss because she's very dominant. And I dislike her a bit instantly. She was happy with the interview, so she invited me over to Singapore to try out working in the company for two days for observation. By 4pm, I boarded a one-way flight to Singapore.

On Wednesday morning, I arrived at the place. Very scenic and fresh. And I got to be introduced to the only Supervisor there. And I had a small chit-chat with the ladyboss after that. I didn't work. I observed the nature of work. And I had a serious pep talk with the supervisor about the company background. Sometimes knowing too much of the company isn't a good thing.

On Thursday, I observed the nature of work again. And I had a serious talk with the ladyboss about the job. She's very good in persuading me. I almost fall for the attractive remuneration she has to offer. It's so tempting no one could say no to that as a foreigner. I told her I have to consider. She said this is a rare chance for people like me to work in Singapore, people would jump on this offer without hesitation. After that, I left. On that night itself, I turned down her offer.

On Friday morning, I checked my phone, and there's 3 messages from her. The last one was telling me to pick up her call and talk to her. I've seen the messages, and read it twice. I felt bad about turning down such a good opportunity. I am not sure what's stopping me. 

On Saturday, I went back to KL by bus. On the way back home, I was thinking about the reality I will have to face again tomorrow. 

Today, I was sitting here, typing this down, and start searching for job again.