Monday, April 7, 2014

Sad Day

 

Dear Zach,

I’m just sad today.

I just want to lay on my bed, close my eyes, and forget everything I hate about me.

I couldn’t. Because these imperfections have been part of me for a very long time. And will be forever tagging along with me til I die.

Life is really unfair at most of the time. Why do I have to be the one that have gone through the roller coaster rides to reach the destination?

Why can’t I have the similar road as Mr.Popular-and-Hot to have been able to get what ever he wants in his life?

I’ve always convinced myself if I work hard enough I would definitely get there. Only to lead to inevitable disappointment I’ve gotten used to have.

Not a single time I am able to get to enjoy a glorious moment in my entire fucking life.

It is just so pathetic. So pathetic I want to cry out loud but I couldn’t even squeeze a single drop of tear out of my eyes.

Life is so mess-up for me. And I will always be the one who clear up the mess and move on, pretending like it is just another casual downfall.

I am so sick and tired of this shits going on lately. Disappointment leads to another one. It seems unstoppable. Or maybe it is unstoppable.

I’ve had enough. I can’t do this anymore. If working hard enough isn’t going to work at all for me, I am not gonna work hard to get something I want.

If it is meant for me, then let it come to me.

I am tired. I want to curl in my bed. And cry. And drift into sleep.

I don’t want to wake up anymore.

6 comments

  1. You're definitely not alone ok.. We will still have to get up and complete the journey regardless.

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  2. It's just a temporary phase...Sunshine after rain...

    :)

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  3. Cheer up! Look for how to make things better. Don't compare yourself to others and try to be someone you're not.

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  4. sometimes it is just hard not to do comparison. It is a tough pill to swallow when a person is better than you are. The worst part is that when the goods outweigh the flaws.
    Well, this is life. Deal with it or not. Life is and has always been unfair, if not to everyone, to me.

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  5. trust me...
    nobody's having an easy life in this world,
    what comes up, will eventually go down, and what goes down, will eventually come up...
    life won't be life if it's easy, and remember one thing, have faith, have hope, you may never know what awaits you in the future, so be positive....

    "serenity is not freedom from the storm but peace amid the storm"

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