Jealousy

Dear Zach,

I shouldn't have taken my tops for granted; Thinking all the while they would just have flings and won't get attached to someone; Knowing the fact that they would come to me whenever we both find ourselves horny.

For the past few months, my list of tops have been replacing with new guys. Though I still keep in touch with a few who fucked me well. Those regular tops I used to met frequently back in last year were totally cut off and I couldn't bother to contact them anymore. I found out that one of them were taken. That got me immensely jealous I blocked him on any means of social media and contact.

Few days back, I got to know, over Instagram stories, that one of my favorite malay tops is getting engaged. I replied to his story whether it is true. He confirmed my nightmare. My reply to him was rather blunt and short. Yesterday, another malay top I always fucked with, told me he has a boyfriend and his boyfriend told him to remove any fuck buddy he has ever encountered with. He apologized profusely over facebook, but I blocked and removed him without saying anything to him.

I'm so upset. I don't know why. I am not happy for them.