The Fatties Sauna

Dear Zach,

Last night I've decided to try out other gay bathhouse in town known as 52 Forest Sauna. This sauna has been equally long-standing as Otot2 and others. They all have been operating for decade yet they have survived and still surviving through the toughest times. This sauna is not as popular as those I have been to. It is often overshadowed by Otot2 because both of its location are just like 1km apart. Also, the type of crowd is far cry from Otot2. Let me tell you why in a few moment.

The location is really strategic - 5 minutes walk from MRT station and the surrounding is oddly quiet at night. I don't have to transit between stations like how I usually go to Otot2, it saves up time and headache - total travel time on train is just 30 minutes. It is located in between of the shoplot, owning a 3-floored premise. I am kinda surprised by that.

The price for entry is RM26 on weekdays; RM29 on weekends and public holiday. Mannnn that is cheap.

The locker availability is fairly limited. What surprises me the most is the cleanliness of the toilet and open shower. The 1st floor is the reception and massage parlour; The dry and wet sauna is at 2nd floor; The 3rd floor is just a mini gym.

After I took a shower, I went to the dry sauna. It is too small for just 6 people inside. But the temperature of the heat is fairly decent unlike otot2's it can just melt your face off if you spend more than 10 minutes inside. The best part is the wet sauna - it is spacious and well lit inside, and I love the heat so much.

Let's talk about the crowd. Since it is on weekday, the crowd slowly thins out after 7pm. If you like fat and chubby men, this place is for you. Almost every men in the premise is fat. I am not gonna sugatcoat this - these fat guys are every corner. Even the leanest guy amongst them is also stocky with obvious belly. There is so many fat guys I wonder if I will gain extra few pounds after leaving the place. I went to explore the dark room but it was empty.  

Apparently, I did not have any action. I just enjoyed the immense heat of the wet sauna for at least 1 hour and left at 9pm.

Now I know the reason this sauna is often overlooked and cheap. If you are into fat guys, this is the place. Will I ever come back again? Probably not.

The China Dick

Dear Zach,

He was sliding inside of me slowly - smooth and wet. I was on four on his queen size bed, both of my arms pushed my chest upright, with my arching back, and receiving his long 6.5 incher with moans and pleasures. I could feel every inch of his shaft across my orifice. I was glad I was here getting rawdog by this China man on the 2nd day of Chinese Lunar Year back in January this year.

We exchanged messages on Grindr. He texted in Cantonese and I knew he wasn't local. I was itching for a fuck and he has a big dick, so we decided to meet up at his place.

Since it was a public holiday, the traffic was so smooth but, still, I arrived at his lobby 20 minutes later. It was unusual of me because I normally wouldn't risk opting to travel more than 15 minutes of the distance just for sex.

I waited for him to pick me at the lobby. When he appeared from the elevator, I was in complete letdown by his outlook. He looked haggared and skinny. A total opposite of I saw in his picture. But he still look quite decent-looking albeit his poor outlook. I did not have the heart to say no. So I decided to take a leap faith and follow him back to his unit. We chatted a little on the way up to his place. He is from Shanghai, China, working as forex trader and living here for 2 years. 

Once we reached his unit apartment, we went straight to his room. His dressing table was full of empty drinking bottles, empty cups, and a bog. Then, the penny finally dropped - now I knew why he looked the way he was. He was chem-fun user. I wasn't into that and was turned off by seeing him having the bog in one hand and a lighter in the other, litting up the base of the bog, and suck the essence out of it.

I wanted to leave until he whipped out his long beautiful 6.5 inchers. I was sucker for big dick. And I couldn't say no to that. I stripped naked and bend over his dick and put it in mouth. As I was giving him a sloppy blowjob, he continued suck out of the bog. His dick was semi-hard. With all those shits he was inhaling, it made sense why his dick was weak and he look haggered. He told me to turn around, then he ate my ass like a meal. I sucked him close to 15 minutes, when he was finally rock hard, he asked me if he could fuck me raw. He was on PreP and even showed me the bottles of PreP from the drawers. I nodded and let him slide inside of me.

He grew rock hard when he was inside of me without any barrier. He moved his hip slowly against my ass, pacing up bit by bit, eventually slamming his hips against mine, create all the satisfying pounding sounds. When he pulled it out, his long dick was glistening with the ass juices, wet and dripping, and I was surprised how wet I was. Probably the lube he used creating a nice lathering lubrication, hence it felt fantastic how slippery it was as he undulating in me. In between, he took the bog and inhaled deeply and blew the smoke into my anus, making my sphincter more dilated than it should be.

We fucked close to 3 hours but I still wanted more. And he could go on and on with the aid of the chem. In between, we took a short break, then we continued fucking. My orifice was already sore and puckered with all the damaged it took. He wanted to cum inside me but I did not allow it. So, he controlled and kept fucking me. I couldn't take it no more. Since it was close to 6 pm, I'd had to be back home by then. I cleaned myself and got dressed.

When he walked me to the door, we kissed goodbye. But the kiss turned into a hungry make out. We both were rock hard underneath our pants. He pushed me into unoccupied room next to the main door, there was a bed, he pinned me down on it, and roughly ripped my pants down, since my anus was already dilated, he spitted on it, and slid in it with ease. He kept fucking me non-stop til we both were sweating like mad in the hot stuffy room. He still couldn't cum but wanted to cum inside of me. I refused that.

When I looked at the clock, I was chasing time and rushing to leave and told him to keep in touch.

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We did keep in touch and met up again the day after the next day. But I was still sore. It was uncomfortable. So the session was wrapped up shortly.

The next day I noticed I had anal fissure from all the pounding I got with him. I texted him I needed to rest for my ass to heal.

However, he was being assumptive that I did not want to meet him anymore. Then, he started saying some random weird shits about me being not satisfied of his skill in bed.

I found him appalling and ignored him. Although the sex was great, I do not want to have sex with a psychopath.

 

Grindr Can Just Go Suck Cock

Dear Zach,

Grindr is no longer serving the main purpose of hooking up, but rather a bunch of scammers in it. I always get random messages about "do you want to be friend or have a partner?". Most of these profiles are blank, and their stats are always 178cm tall, 69kg in weight and always versatile. Now these scammers are upgrading, I get tapped by some random hot white guys and upon seeing their profile, it says " .... subscribe to my OF page and you will get a reward to my huge 7 inches in return... ". What a stupid way to scam men into subbing your OF. Who still subscribe to OF anyway?  

Ever since they reduce the radius of profile availability to view, I always see the same faces next to my profile. The new feature "right now" is not exactly helping either. They also limit to 10 profile max in your search. Most of the guys in grindr are not available to host. What worst is some of them even has no transportation. These people might as well just fuck off and delete grindr forever for good. For the past few weeks, I didn't bring guys back home while my dad asleep. I am just tired of cleaning my room up every time after sex at late night, and by the time I was done, it is already 12 am. I even told my regular saying I am no longer able to host at night now but I didn't tell him the reason.

Last night, I went to Chakran instead of Sunday because this Sunday the Donald Trump is coming to Malaysia to attend ASEAN Summit, therefore most of the major highways and roads to downtown will be closed. I've had much needed fun in Chakran as usual. No sex, just oral. There was this white good-looking British guy surrounded by a few indians bottom and they keep chatting up with him as if he is the star of the premise. We did lock eyes for a few moment. I felt like he was giving me an untold signs of expressing his interest in me. I don't know, maybe I am wrong. Somehow I am just not into him. I would rather suck a thick cock by a chubby indian man and I did and drank his cum twice while this hot japanese guy cum all over my orifice. Not bad having both cums of different guys in the front and back of me.

You see... ... the chances of having sexual encounters with multiple men in gay sauna is 10 times more likely than getting a message from Grindr. Does it consider as pay for sex? As in pay for entry to have sex in a gay-centric places? Do I really have to resort to going this places only to have sex in future? 

     

Dilemma

Dear Zach,

I am starting to become more self-conscious of my physique as I am leaning toward 90kg. Last check on Sunday, I am at 88kg. Although I have gained size overall, what makes me self-conscious about is my belly. It is not that kind of unhealthy overweight fat belly, but it is the kind when a person is consistently working out in the gym and increases his caloric intake steadily, the abs is eventually shielded by a layer of fat that is probably an inch thick. I suddenly have this sense of self-consciousness because I took a selfie in the front mirror and compared the picture I took 2 months ago, it has shown such a drastic change of my physique. However, seemingly some regular gym members start to notice my body changes and shower me with compliment. 

Apart from that, I am getting less messages in Grindr now. When I get messages, they are mostly from scammers asking me if I want to have a friend and partner. I always use the most recent photos I took to put on my grindr profile. I never liked the idea of deceiving men with some old pic of me due to my insecurity just to get hookup. They either like the current me or don't. Same scenario applied to sauna visits, I can certainly feel the sense of being casted out when you are unfit.

I am starting to ponder on the thought of losing fat once I reach 90kg. But I am satisfied of how I look now for real. I can finally see some meat on my bones. My ass cheeks are getting plump and rounder. It took me almost a year to finally get here, I do not want to lose all of it just because of what other mean gays say. I am gonna delete Grindr anyway. I've had more action with men from sauna instead. 

I always wanted to be muscular. If being unfit and fat is what it takes to become one, I would rather to be uncomfortable for now so that I can be comfortable with what I will achieve later in life. 

How To Heal Anal Fissure You Get From Anal Sex

Dear Zach,

One of my biggest peeves being a pure bottom is having anal fissure. I've had them for a number of times throughout my adult years and, trust me, it is not a good feeling. I just had it last week. 

Anal fissure is, in the simplest terms, a tiny wound around the smooth muscle tissue around the orifice. Although it is tiny to be noticed, it is hurtful enough to know its existence.

You can get it resulted of passing of hard-stools or rough sex or sex without lubrication. For me, I always got it from having sex. And the tiny split always occurred relatively near to bottom end of the external anal sphincter. (as you can see the picture below, a tiny red wound close to the sphincter). Sometimes I also got it from folliculitis - an inflamed hair follicle near my anus, because I always shave my ass to make it smooth for rimming. 

I have tried many ways of healing it. And these are the best ways recommended medically by doctors:

1. Sit bath

Prepare a basin large enough to fit your ass into it. If you have a bathtub, that would be good. I use a plastic basin and place it on the floor. I fill the basin with ONLY warm water. Then, I sit in it for 5 minutes. The purpose of doing this is to promote blood flow to the injured area for healing. I do this twice a day after shower.

2. Apply antiseptic/antibiotic ointment

For me, I apply antibiotic ointment on the affected area twice a day after sit bath. I usually squat down so that I can easily pinpoint the wound and apply on it with the ointment. You can purchase it from drugstore or pharmacy. I use Pfizer Terramycin Ointment - it can also be used for eyes infection.

3. Avoid having sex for the moment til it completely heal.

Usually when the cut is minor, it would heal within 2 to 3 days. Avoid having sex at all cost because anal penetration could very likely aggravate the affected area.

The only way to know if it is completely heal is when there is no pain ensued when you wash your ass with water. 

In the nutshell, anal fissure is pretty common for bottoms to have it. Most of the time it does not require surgical intervention. Just treat it with care and then you will be good to get fucked in no time. 

FYI, those 2 pics are my real ass ;)

High School Shenanigans - Sex and Killing

Dear Zach,

The number of killing crime has been shockingly happening quite frequently in my country for the past months. Just 2 months ago, there was this teenage son who killed his mother, who happened to be a teacher and widow, and younger brother. The magnitude of the news has become the headlines of my fb news feed everyday. News have it that the son was under immense academic pressure and constant nagging by his mother who wanted the best for him. He couldn't take it no more and ended up killing the mother in her sleep. His younger brother tried and stopped him but it was too late and ended up got killed instead. It was such a heartbreaking news.

Besides, every week there were cases about high school students being sexually abused. The most recent one was about a female student being raped by 4 high schoolers in the classroom, and the whole scene was recorded and dissipated through social media. Then, in another state of the country, there was a case about consented group sex between the high schoolers happening in the classroom. What in the world has become?

Just few days ago, a new killing case happened in the school between a 14-year-old male and 16-year-old female student, in which the 14 y.o kid stabbed 200 times at the chest of the female student in the toilet because she rejected his love confession. He killed out of rage. He then calmly walked around the school compound with the bloody knife in his hand. He was apprehended shortly after.

It is crazy how the high school ground has become such a major crime scenes. I strongly believe social media is the one to blame. Teenagers having early sex is pretty normal. What not normal is having group sex in the classroom and recording the whole sex scene and post it online. That's sick. I can hardly find any group sex for myself due to frequent raiding in the hotels.   

My Last Time Going to Otot2

Dear Zach,

Just when I thought I could get laid in the infamous Otot2 sauna, things couldn't have gotten any bad than it could. Probably I went on one of the weekdays, hence the disappointment rendered me to draw my final straw of going to this place.

I arrived at the place at 7.30 pm. Paid my entry and undress in the locker room and went to shower. The crowd was significantly lesser than it normally would. I walked around, enjoyed the immense heat in dry and wet sauna, and dipped myself in the hot spring for recovery. Around 8.30pm, I tried looking around for men. To my disappointment, most of the men were either out of shape, old, fat, and way too skinny to my liking. There were 2 good-looking chinese guys so far hanging around - I can tell they do workout a lot. And they were such a huge catch amongst the men. I felt like one of them was into me. I couldn't tell. Because I was certainly not into them.

There were so many malays around as usual. And I have zero interest in any of them nor they in me. Ever since I have been bulking up, my sexual appeal has been declining. I've got lesser touches from men in sauna. I am not complaining because this is the choice I made when I decided to gain size for my body. I guess gay men would still very much prefer men in their lean and toned physique.

It was close to 9.30pm. I've got no action with any man. There was no single brown man in sight. I've seen more attractive men in Chakran than in here. I was so disappointed. Somehow, there were a few guys blew me. And most of these guys are bottoms. So many bottoms but where is the tops? Probably there would be more attractive men in sight if I come on the weekend. But since the place was infested with mostly malay and bottoms, this would be my last time being here. To be honest, I never had a good time here ever.      

Untitle

Dear Zach,

For the last few weeks, apart from going to gay saunas, I also have been dropping visit to a few bookstores in town just to check them out. Despite the fact that you can easily view the variety selection of books on the internet, something about visiting bookstore is and has always been an anticipation for me - especially browsing the newest releases placing right in front of the entrance with "New Arrival" tag upon entering.

I tried picking up reading for the past 2 months. Apart from reading books from my favorite author, I did try to read some others authors' work. But I didn't like it. I tried to finish it. I just couldn't. This made me skeptical in buying new books. Also, the prices of the books these days are never cheap. It ranges between RM60 - RM120. I still remember back then the cheapest was RM32. With the price double up now, I can no longer simply afford books from different author just so that I could "try" reading if I like it. With such price, it costs me a week of grocery shopping. I will probably look for second handed books online under RM20. 

Most of my expenses now are on the foods. My goal toward 90kg looks promising now. I am standing at 87kg. I certainly look bigger than I was. My ass is getting bigger and rounder. My chest looks slightly wider and larger but still looks like shit to me. I intend to go for being pro-bodybuilding. I asked my coach feedback about being PRO in Malaysia, he told me "... don't... it does not worth all the hardwork you pay off... just be fitness influencer or be a slut on tiktok/instagram, and get sponsors from there, you earn way more from there than being a PRO ... ". It was a total let down, but what he said it was true. If you are hot and good-looking, just dance stupid on tiktok would get you to somewhere.

Every thing now on socmed is all about sex.