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Dear Zach,

For the last few weeks, apart from going to gay saunas, I also have been dropping visit to a few bookstores in town just to check them out. Despite the fact that you can easily view the variety selection of books on the internet, something about visiting bookstore is and has always been an anticipation for me - especially browsing the newest releases placing right in front of the entrance with "New Arrival" tag upon entering.

I tried picking up reading for the past 2 months. Apart from reading books from my favorite author, I did try to read some others authors' work. But I didn't like it. I tried to finish it. I just couldn't. This made me skeptical in buying new books. Also, the prices of the books these days are never cheap. It ranges between RM60 - RM120. I still remember back then the cheapest was RM32. With the price double up now, I can no longer simply afford books from different author just so that I could "try" reading if I like it. With such price, it costs me a week of grocery shopping. I will probably look for second handed books online under RM20. 

Most of my expenses now are on the foods. My goal toward 90kg looks promising now. I am standing at 87kg. I certainly look bigger than I was. My ass is getting bigger and rounder. My chest looks slightly wider and larger but still looks like shit to me. I intend to go for being pro-bodybuilding. I asked my coach feedback about being PRO in Malaysia, he told me "... don't... it does not worth all the hardwork you pay off... just be fitness influencer or be a slut on tiktok/instagram, and get sponsors from there, you earn way more from there than being a PRO ... ". It was a total let down, but what he said it was true. If you are hot and good-looking, just dance stupid on tiktok would get you to somewhere.

Every thing now on socmed is all about sex.   

Boring and Brawl

Dear Zach,

This weekend my dad was away again. And I have the whole weekend by myself. Unfortunately, I've had anal fissure since Thursday. I wasn't able to have sex since the fissure was very near to my orifice. I thought it would be healed by Saturday. But it was still slightly sore. So I forgo the idea of asking the 23 y.o tall guy over my place for sex.

Luckily, the fissure is completely healed today. So I decided to go to Chakran again.

But It was so bad tonight. Most of the guys are bottoms and they have small dicks. They sucked me more than I did. In fact, I didn't even get to suck them at all. The crowd was significantly lesser. A few chinese guys trying to hit on me, but I was not interested.

I went to the rooftop to try my luck. There was this chinese mature guy sucking this indian's 7 incher in the public view. The indian guy saw me walking over and grab my hand and asked me to join. He sucked me while the chinese guy sucking him. It has become the center of attention while others were on the mattress, lying there, watching the action taking place. Soon, another indian skinny guy joined us, but he was quite shy. I was very eager to suck the 7 incher, but it was in somebody's mouth. Slowly, it has become a mini orgy without sex. I got bored but the big dick indian guy wanted to fuck me raw. So we both moved to the private room. Although he was very hung, sadly he can't get it fully hard to be able to penetrate me. But we both had a great make out session though.

Then I went to the dark steam room. There was a brawl almost broke out in the middle of the room. As I was chilling inside awaiting, a few guys walked into the dark. Later, I heard the sound of a slap on someone, the guy who got slapped yelped and started pushing around, I quickly ran out. Almost everyone ran out in the fear of getting punched. The guy who got slapped was a very tall brown guy with tattoo on his right arm. He was angry and frustrated the way he was treated when he refused somebody's touch. He walked away and left. I feel bad for him as that is not right to slap someone when you cannot accept rejection.

I feel like Chakran is getting boring for me. I think I should give myself a breather from going to sauna. Every gay sauna I go, there are more number of bottoms than tops. I want to get fucked hard and rough; Not getting sucked by random bottoms who think I am a top.   

A Barebackful Weekend 2

Dear Zach,

Friday night sex has left me wanting to get bred more. There was no luck on Saturday although there were a few interests in grindr planning to meet up but they cancelled on me last minute. I took a break on Saturday and went to Chakran on Sunday evening.

I reached there at 7 pm and it was already happening in both dry and steam sauna. As usual, I took my shower and went to sit in the dry sauna for a while. There were a few blowjobs between me and a few indian guys. Nothing particular. 

I went into the steam sauna and I can tell there were actions taking place. I could hear sloppy and muffling dick sucking at a few corner. Since it was dark inside, all I could do was to reach my hands as a lead and touch whoever wanted to be touched and got down to business. I managed to suck a thick indian cock. So thick I wonder if it could fit in my ass. There were many men coming in, congesting the entrance, at this point, everyone was just against each other slippery wet body.

Then, there was this guy walked in, followed by another guy behind him. As far as I could fairly make out his silhouette, he is lean and hairy, I can tell he works out a bit. As soon as our body touched, I grabbed his junk as he grabbed mine, his growing 7 inches throbbing in my hand. But it was taken away by another hungry mouth, but we caressed each other body, and started to make out ferociously. He sucked my dick and I sucked his as his pushed away the sucker - long and juicy in my mouth. I stood up, and turned my back facing his, my ass poking his dick, hoping he would get the hint that I wanted to get railed in the middle of the crowd there and then.

He got the hint, and grabbed hold of my ass, spit on his dick, and slid right into my ass. I gave out a yelp as he did. He pounced me so hard while everyone around us minding their own business. The ass pounding sound echoed all over the dark steam room. A few started to get close to us. We moved out closer to the entrance where there was a bit of light shine through so that anybody who walked in on us could see that we were fucking in the middle of the way. A few men who walked in was surprised by the ordeal and stayed and watched.

As the heat was getting on us, we took a break and walked out. Now, I could totally see him. He is relatively good-looking - with trimmed beard from ear to chin, hairy chest, faded hair style, and lean physique. He asked if I was a local. I told him yes. And he is a Pakistanis. Oh sweet lord jesus... ... my favorite kind of man. We chat a little and continued our public fornication in the dark steam room. I was so turned on by attention I was given. As he was getting close, he pulled out, and started jerking off fiercely, and asked me to finger his ass. He cried out loud and cum all over his body.

I thanked him and moved on to find others to fuck me. Soon, I found another one in the dark steam room, hard dick out standing in the middle, I moved my back against his dick, he got the idea, and entered inside of me. I didn't care how he looks, I just wanted someone to fuck me raw. In the end, he cum inside me and left.

I left around 9 pm.      

A Barebackful Weekend 1

Dear Zach,

My dad was away for a short trip over the weekend. That left me with an empty house. I was on Grindr most of the time trying to get guys to come over. Friday night, I managed to hook up with this tall mixed indian malay guy. He was at the center of town when we exchanged messages in Grindr and was quick to agree to meet me.

He arrived in his bike 30 minutes later. I was greet by his tall lanky build, deep manly voice, nerdy look with large round spectacles on his nose bridge and acne face, and a sign of receding hairline. He was in his formal wear, so apparently he came after work. I showed him into my house, he put his things down, and started to unbutton his shirt, showing off a surprising hairy chest. I was instantly turned on by the view of his hairy body, I moved in and touch him and started licking his nipples.

He kissed me softly, then we were both devouring each other mouth hungrily. We moved backward to my room as we made out. We stripped naked and his 6.5 inches cut dick waving at me in commando. I sucked. I licked. I did everything dirty to it. He turned me over and ate my juicy ass. His tongue played with my orifice and lightly chewed and smooched my juicy ass cheeks in between.

He wanted to fuck bareback. I let him. I was in four, then he slid it in me with ease. He worked his way up to test if I could take it. He pounced me hard enough to let out my moans. He knew the right way to fuck a slut.

"You are such a whore." He said as he pouncing my ass.

"Yes, I am your whore."

"You have such a breedable ass. Oh god.." 

" breed me, daddy, I work my ass off for you." 

We tried a several sex positions, but doggy was our favorite. My asshole was so wet and sloppy as his dick sliding in and out of my orifice. Our sex lasted for quite a while. In the end, he cum twice in my ass.

After he cleaned himself, we cuddled in my bed for a while. We got to know each other a bit. A few surprising facts about him: he is just 23 year-old, but he looks so much older than his age should be. I thought he was older than me. And, this was his first ever bareback experience and it was euphoric for him. I asked why he was willing to lose his virgin bareback experience on me, he seemed shy to answer. I was and have always been someone's first time experience in sex I don't know why. 

As it was getting late and he lives quite far away from my place, we made out a bit before he got dressed and left. We exchanged phone numbers and promised to keep in touch.

The Bangladeshi Dick

Dear Zach,

Two Sundays ago, I went to Chakran as it was a long stretch of weekend holiday. As Monday and Tuesday were public holiday, I bet the crowd in Chakran would be favorable to me.

After I paid for the entry, I went to the locker room to change. There were already quite a number of guys getting dressed for leaving. But the crowd upstairs said otherwise. As usual, I was the outstanding one amongst the browns. I took a shower at the open shower area and went to the dry sauna.

As I entered, there were already 2 indian guys sitting there on the top bench. I sat close to one of them. Minutes later, I felt his hand caressing my thigh, then he slip through underneath of my tower to grab my cock. I did the same to him. He bend over to his left and started sucking my cock - warm and wet. He alternated himself between sucking my cock and chest. As the heat getting to him, he thanked me and left, here came another brown guy entered.

I could not make out how he looked like. But he was definitely shorter than me. He sat on my left. Our knees were touching each other. I slid my hand across to his dick, I was greeted with a perfect 7 incher. I bend over and sucked him like I was giving resuscitation. His dick was smooth and long. He pulled me up and kissed me hard while playing with my chest. He seemed to love my chest a lot. He kept sucking it non stop. Then, the door swung opened, a slightly muscular indian guy walked in and saw us in action. He sat next to my right. His hand started touching me inappropriately, I wanted him to touch me like that. He placed my hand on his 7 inches thick cock. I was so luck and happy because there were two 7 inchers right next to me. I bend over to him and started sucking him. I alternated myself between the 1st and 2nd guy. I was sandwiched in between them, my mouth was so wet from sucking, my body smell of their saliva as their tongue did their magic work all over me. As the play went on, another guy came in and sat next to the 2nd guy, the 3rd guy stood up and he was rock hard with his 6 incher. He brought himself in front of me, nudging me to devour it. 3 big dicks at once, I was in fucking heaven.

Soon, the 1st guy went out, leaving me and the 2nd and 3rd guy. As I kept sucking the 3rd, I could feel his build-up closing to its edge, without warning it came all over my mouth. Once he finished, he left. Only me and the 2nd guy in the room now. I told him I love his dick so much. This time, he stood up on the bench below, facing the door, as if on cue, I did what I should be doing - placing his thick 7 incher in my mouth, sliding my wet lips across his long shaft up and down, tasting every inch of him as I could. The door swung wide opened, another guy walked in and was surprised by our bold steamy action happening right in front of the door, at that point we both did not bother and continued. Eventually, he jerked off and cum in my mouth. I slurped every drop of his semen.

I thanked him and left to shower. The night was still young, and the crowd was packing. I sucked a few dicks in the dark steam bath room. As the heat was getting on me, I left to take a breather.

This guy came close to me, and lightly touched my bulge. But he was somewhat familiar, then I realized he was the 1st guy in the dry sauna. He looks decent up close. He has a slim body and a facial feature of pakistanis. He gave me a smile and hugged me, telling me he likes my body. The way he speaks had me confirmed that he is not a local indian. We went in to the dark steam room, I started sucking his 7 inches on my knee. Then, we pulled me up and told me "I want fucking...". I asked if he has a condom, he nodded yes. Then he went down and grabbed a condom, we moved our play to a private room.

As we were in there, we chug our towel aside, his 7 incher greeting me with anticipation, I kneel down and had him in my mouth. We made out, sucked each other chest, and I deepthroating his dick. I stood up and got ready for the grand price. I lubed myself with my own spit, as we both were sweating like mad already, my orifice was already wet and sloppy. Before he entered inside of me, I asked where he was from. To my surprise, he is from Bangladesh. As a Bangladeshi, he has the most perfect straight dick I have ever come across. He wore a condom, I turned around and bend over, arching my back, ass tilted up for him, he slapped my ass telling me how juicy my ass is, and entered inside me slowly from behind in standing, as he was fully inside of me, he slowly moved his hips against my ass.

He picked up his speed of pouncing. At this point, he was pouncing hard on me. I moaned so loud to his every hard pounce. He seems to know how to fuck very well. Every long stroke pulling out and in against the wall of my orifice had me wanting more of him. We were sweating like mad inside but we couldn't be bothered. He kept fucking me in standing, in missionary, and in doggy. He just kept doing what he did best. Our body yearned for each other. The slippery sensation of our body, in some way, intensified our desires, as if we were making hot and sweaty love in a semi-dark stuffy room. I've never had a Bangladeshi who fucked me so well and was able to last quite long. We were fucking close to 45 minutes. We couldn't take it any more as we were out of breath. I told him I wanted to drink his cum. He pulled the condom off, and started jerking it. I kneel down in front of him, tilted my head up, our eyes locked, telling him that I want him, I want all of him in my mouth. As he was pacing up his arm, I could feel his breathing quicken, I knew he was about to cum. Next thing I knew, he exploded all over my mouth, I sucked every drop of him off from his tip. He shuddered as my mouth licked his tip of his dick. We both gave out a light chuckles as to acknowledge how amazing our sex was. I wiped myself up and we went to shower together.

It was already 9 pm, there were nobody else around except both of us. We got to know each other a little bit. He is married with a few kids. His wife knows he fucks around with men and women. But his wife and kids are staying in his country. I told him some bit of myself but mostly fake info. We got dressed and I thanked and bid him goodbye.

Daddies' Juice

Dear Zach,

Last evening, I went to Chakran with the hope of getting railed by one of the black indian cocks. I arrived before 7pm, the crowd was good - probably more than 20 men in there. I quickly stripped myself naked and wrapped the towel around my waist, and walked up to the 2nd floor looking for action.

The men were by the corridor in front of the sauna. Everyone was looking for everyone. The steam bath was crowded with men and moans. Surprisingly, the temperature of the steam bath has finally fixed and the heat was great as I could barely feel any heat in the steam bath room for the past few weeks I was there.

There were some fine-looking indian gentlemen that night. One of them was a really good-looking, thick hair, sharp jawline, beautiful face feature, and lean toned body physique. He was a catch. Our eyes locked for a few occasion. We intended to get close but he seemed a bit hesitant. I did not want to come across as desperate slut as I was, so I just walked around and scout for others.

One tall silver indian daddy caught my eyes. He is really tall, probably 185cm, and has an average strong hairy body. Here I meant strong is because I can tell he works out a bit, has no belly but a firm chest. We locked our eyes. He then followed me into the dark steam bath room, hoping he would grab me before I disappeared into darkness. I stood quite out front near the entrance, so that he could make out of me. As he passed me by, I put my hand lightly on his crotch, letting him know I was interested in him. He held my hand and played my pecs with his other hand, light and playful enough for wanting him more. I dove into his hair chest and sucked his nipples, then he pulled me upward, and sealed my lips with his. He kissed me in an awfully romantic way. As the heat was too much, he grabbed my hand and moved to the shower room below. Now I saw him clearly enough. I kneel down and sucked his hard 5.5 inches, me on my knee, my eyes looking up to him while I sucking him, wanting to see how I took him in my mouth. As a silver daddy who is closed to 50 year old, he certainly is keeping himself in good shape. I told him to cum for me. He started to jerk his dick off slowly, I was still on my knees, eyes locking with him, tongue out front of his dick, hungry for his cum juice. Minutes later, I could feel a taste of sweetness in my mouth, it dripped back to my throat as my mouth still wide-opened for him to finished. I stood up as he finished. We chatted a bit. Then I kissed him goodbye and looked for others.

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I opened the door of the sauna, there I saw the good-looking lad standing by the wooden wall near the door entrance, our eyes locked for a bit as if he was telling me he wanted me. I entered the sauna and sat for 2 minutes and left because the men kept coming in. I walked to the back of the premise and sat on the stool, there I saw another white-looking fit silver daddy. He is slightly bulkier, probably older than the first one I met but he looks pretty good at his age. His eyes were locking on me when I walked. I went to the private lounge to see if he followed. He did. The private room was unlocked and free, I went in there, and wait for him. He appeared, then he closed the door behind him. We both took our towels off, my eyes went straight to his whooping 7 inches schloong. We moved our body closer, I placed my hands on his hairy pecs, him sniffing on my necks, our faces were so close to each other, we moved in for a kiss, followed by our tongue stacking against each other. His 7 incher was poking against me. I kneel down and placed him in my mouth, sucking it gently while I tilted my head up, eyes looking up to him as I did the first one. I love it when I get to look at their facial expression when I suck their dick in this way. Somehow it makes me feel like a slutty boy on his knee getting punished for something I never did. Their immense pleasure plastered across their face as I looked at them in their eyes when I sucking them so hard give me a satisfaction that I have the power over them when their dick in my mouth. I wanted him to fuck me, but he did not want to. So I gave him a sloppy blowjob. I told him to cum in my mouth. He started jerking off, I dropped on my knees, both of my arms high up playing his nipples, before I knew, he exploded all over my mouth.

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The 3rd load was rather quick. I sucked this indian daddy, as he grew hard, I could feel the pre-cum leaking in my mouth, the next minute, he cummed inside without warning. I swallow it and he left the steam-bath while I sitting in the dark waiting to score the next one. By now, my mouth was full of unborn babies from 3 different daddies. If the throat can ever be pregnant, I wonder what is the chances and who the father was.

By 8.30 pm, the crowd has become thinning. I went to the roof deck to check out, found another skinny daddy laying on the mattress, awaiting for someone. I went in and play his dick under the towel, he untug the towel and let me suck him. I was sucking him for good ol 5 minutes to get his dick hard 6 inches. I kept sucking him and he cummed in my mouth without another warning.

I left the sauna with 4 loads in my stomach and dissatisfaction of not getting fucked.

Breeding While Having Fever

Dear Zach,

The next day after the trip to Otot2 sauan, I felt my head spinning when I woke up in the morning. But I still make myself to the gym since it was my favorite leg days. But my workout were cut short into 35 minutes session as opposed to usual 1 hour 30 min because I could the fever fatigue hitting on me.

When I got into my car, I checked my phone and there was a grindr message. It was from a chinese top I met few years ago. He has been texting me over the years for 2nd meet up but our timing were never right. So happened I finished my gym session before 10 am but my intention was to go to the clinic. So I decided to meet him up and his place was just 10 minutes away from the gym. 

We met at the front of the convenient mart so that he brought me up to his apartment unit. He looked older than we first met. At least he did not get fat but his physique remained borderline stocky.

After I washed and douched in his bathroom, he was naked on the bed playing his dick. I crawled over his bed and put his semi hard on in my mouth. He grew into a full 6.5 inches thick as I worked my slutty mouth on his chunky meat. The top-down windows of his room were fully seen through but his unit is at 15th floor, and it was day time, the cars on the highway can barely see us from down there. I kept sucking him and he nudged me to deep throat it. But my throat was hurting from the fever/infection, I told him I would try. After a several attempts, I lubed myself up and his hard-on, I placed my orifice against his tip, poking in slightly to bulge my anus opened, slowly, skin-to-skin sliding in with ease. I just love big and thick dick raw fucking me. I rode on him for a while before we switched to doggy style.

He fucked me in a relatively quicken pace, but not enough for me to moan louder. He grabbed his phone and record the penetration view from my back. I did not mind at all because it meant that my ass looks too good to true. Then, we moved our sex play to the kitchen isle in front of a big mirror. I was leaning on top of the isle facing the big mirror, back arching for him while he was taking it from the back as we were both looking at the mirror. To my surprise, I look quite muscular in my reflection - though I still have to work on my shoulder and arms. He kept fucking me hard til he told me he was gonna cum. With his breathing pacing up, he squirted his man juice inside of me. His thick cum was spread along my ass cheeks as he pulled it out, I looked at my ass in the mirror, wet and covered with his white stains.

I cleaned up and left his place. Before I went back home, I dropped by the clinic.    

Raw-dogged by Bear Belly

Dear Zach,

One day after getting PREP, I have already been raw-dogged by 2 men.

Yesterday evening, I took 2 doses of pills before I headed to Otot2 sauna. The chances to get fucked there is relatively higher. I decided to try my luck. I was under the weather since morning at the gym. My throat started to do its trick again. By the time I reached the sauna, I was feeling lethargic. I couldn't stay long in the hot sauna, I felt myself burning up - the fever was creeping in. I cruised around the dark open spaces and steam bath room to see if I have any luck. At that point, I really didn't mind to hook up with the malays, I just wanted to get bred by random guys.

Towards 10pm, I wanted to give up and leave because my head started to spin. I walked into the dark open space again. An indian bear, with his hairy bear belly and scruffy chin, walked into the room, he seemed to be eager to hook up as I saw him trying to grab a skinny malay twink, but he pushed him away and told him he was not interested. He stood by the wall, playing his dick, then he saw my silhouette sitting in front of him. He came over, reached his hand over my dick, playing it, I did the same to him. He was already fully erected at 5.5 inches. He smooched me as soon as I stood up. He tasted like beer. We were making out in the dark, other men were passing by us and some were trying to squeeze in between us. He licked and chew on my nipples ferociously, I let out a moan. I kneel down and put his dick in my mouth, it smelled like indian cock I love it.

We, then, moved our play time to a private toilet. He ate my ass, his scruffy beard tickling my ass cheeks as he ate my ass. I grind my ass against his cock, as if nudging him to slid right in. He spit on his dick, and he entered me fully raw. Ohhh I love it. How the years of fantasizing getting raw fucked by a random guy at a random place, having bareback sex without any trace of doubt, letting the natural fornication taken its course just like how it supposed to be - no barrier, no worrying, no limit.

He grabbed my shoulders as he humping me from the back. As he quicken up, he let out a moan and cum inside of me. He pulled it out and my asshole was dripping with his juice. We chat a little. I believe he is not a local. He is a Punjabi but I couldn't hear which country he is from. He seems to have little understanding in English. I gave him a kiss, and took a long sniff across his hairy chest and belly, and bid him goodbye.

I took a shower and left.