Thursday, January 15, 2015

Vulnerable

 

Dear Zach,

Hey everyone! I had survived through the midst week and am still surviving and feeling ever stronger – not sure if I am stronger than I think or pretend to be someone I am not.

I still have doubts in my capability in this job handling. It’s been 10 days since I started working. I faced challenges everyday but not every time I could overcome it. Most of the challenges are rejection, especially when you got rejected by 30 persons per day. How would you feel?

Today, I got rejected by more than 30 persons. Needless to say, my result’s showing sucks. I tried to hold back my tears while standing in front of the bank, waiting and trying every ounce of my energy to stop customers with a fake smile plastered on my face, but to no avail. I keep telling myself, Stay strong, be positive. As the more I got rejected, the more despair I had become. There’s a split second I wanted to give up and go home – I didn’t. I tried my hardest to stop every person walking pass by me when there’s only 2 minutes left til cutoff period.

I picked my stuff and walked back to my car, ignited my engine, laid back to take a deep breath. My eyes were brimming with warm tears and my voice chocked.

After holding back my tears for 10 days, I’ve finally let down the side of my vulnerability. 

8 comments

  1. This kind of job will surely suck lots of ur energy and happiness out of you. Just hang on as long as you can and when there's better opportunity, grab it *hugs* You can do it!

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    1. thank you. it does suck my energy damn lot but i never stopped learning throughout this journey.

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  2. I jus send you an email. Hope you will read it soon. =)

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    1. i have read it. thanks for your advice. :)

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  3. bend, but don't break, sometimes being strong doesn't mean you shouldn't cry, just let the tears out, but never give up, and have faith in yourself....

    take care and bless it be

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    1. thank you. Strong belief is very much required in this job. :)

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  4. Erm...
    Just only a few words..
    Gambateh!
    Be strong!
    And cry cry to try..
    Try try try to cry..
    :) hugs.

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