It Finally Shows

Dear Zach,

"Are you headed for competition?" the cute indian guy at the Sundry shop asked while handing me the change.

I was perplexed. "Or you just enjoyed lifting weight at the gym?" He nodded at my body. The penny dropped.

"oh no. I just like lifting weight." I chuckled at his comment but deep down inside I was giddy at his indirect compliment. Especially coming from him.

I have been buying bananas and limes from this Sundry shop since forever. This cute indian helper always at the till and love giving me a few cents off from the bill. He has been seeing my physical changes over the years. For the past 6 months, I have been focusing training a little bit too much on my chest and shoulders, now it finally shows.

A random compliment from a cute stranger to my progress does make my day! 

I needed the poundage

Dear Zach,

TIF texted me out of the blue in Tuesday morning telling me he was back in the area from Penang for a day. I told him we were meeting at night 10.30pm.

He has gotten tanner than the last time I met him in March, but still lean and tall. When we were in my room, we stripped naked and hugged for the longest time. I guess we both missed each other a bit too much.

The sex was as great as I could remember. I sprawled in four with my ass perking up and head muffled in the sheet, he did his usual best to pound away my frustration against the agency and about my salary issue. He pounded me so hard and fast against my butt cheeks I muffled my moan so hard in the sheet.

When he was about to cum, I kneeled down and sealed his dick head in my mouth, quenching my thirst, swallowing every drop of his cum essence down my throat. Tasted like cigarettes. He was surprised by my act. I told him I missed him so much that's why I drank his cum.

I really needed that poundage after having a frustrated start of the week.      

fucking luck

Dear Zach,

It is and has always been part of my DNA that the "good luck" has and never will be in my favor. Ever.

7th of the month is the payday. I am anticipating the salary deposit kachiingg sound from my phone. Somehow, it is deposited earlier than expected but I am crestfallen by looking at the amount in my bank account. I am missing huge chuck of my commission from the delivered parcel counts I did for last month.

I am totally upset and feeling like fool who get scammed by the agency for telling me that they deduct the threshold parcel count for the days I work for, the remaining left are my commission. Therefore, with the combination of the basic salary and the remaining amount of commission they left for me, all those 10k steps walking from house to house, stairs to stairs, lot to lot, underneath the hot and hazy weather, end up I barely even get RM2000. My hub leader is shocked hearing from me. Since we are under different agencies, she can't do anything about it. All she can do to help is to convert me to part-time contract, in which it could earn almost or could be more than what I earn now. Whatever it is, I agree and let her to assist me in this matter.

   

Victim or Volunteer?

Dear Zach,

Those who love watching gay porn, you must have known about Austin Wolf - the fan favorite gay porn star in the internet for his beefy physique and macho sex persona. Back in the days when I was on X, most of his sex clips kept resharing on my feeds by other users. There were plenty of his amateur (non studio produced) videos showing him getting blown in the gym sauna, fucking in the shower, or fucking in public toilet cubicle. Not gonna deny the fact that his presence oozing sex vibe to the surrounding, the gays would find it hard to resist hooking up with him knowing what he did for living.

Most of his encounters were youngster - skinny, smooth, twink. Only his studio-produced videos were with man of his size or slightly younger. But if you were to check out his home made videos, most of them were with boys barely 18. There were videos of him like force-shoving his dick down this teenage kid's throat in the garage, fucking him while the phone was put afar at the side recording the whole scene. 

Guess what? Most of these younglings enjoyed being bred by him as much as the man himself doing the deed on them. You can tell obviously they were more than willing to throw themselves to him rather than being the victim themselves. There was a video, I particularly remember because, where the twink bottom was literally sprawling offering his ass up and smiling with satisfaction while the man himself pounding raw behind him with cameras recording situated in four different angles, and one camera strapped on his forehead as first person view. "Mannn, this guy takes home-made video very seriously." I thought.

Last year, he was sentenced to jail for you-know-what. Interestingly, if these younglings agreed and willing to offer themselves to him, in this case, shouldn't the younglings should get jailed too?

Personally, I never find him remotely attractive. I am more interested as to why the same law doesn't apply to the youngsters who did the deed with him.

Believing can be deceiving

Dear Zach,

In related to previous post about the addiction of social media, most of the contents posted are intentional for seeking validation. Since my feeds are mostly gym and shirtless men, therefore I am fed with plenty of unnaturally muscular guys in their early 20s, proudly showing off their "hardwork", stripping down to their underwear, seeking fans, likes and thirsty comments.

I come across a video about the dark side of steroid usage amongst the teens and guy in their early twenties, they are largely influenced by the pressure of looking good (vascular/shredded/dreambody) on the internet. Not to mention that you can easily purchase a few vials of PED from the dealer or online. This happens a lot to the youngster in India, where they chase for overnight fame by having dream body, so that they can be on stage competing, getting sponsors, to have a better way out of being poor.

As far as I know, being an influencer is not a job. Most of these influencers, in real life, they are as poor as us. They may be rich in having large followers, but not rich in bank accounts.

Not sure why I am into this topic. Probably it gives me a reason to fall back from scrolling on fb reels and focus on my life.

Reeling Out

Dear Zach,

Sometimes I wonder, with all kinds of existing social media, is it even worth posting a part of yourself or your life or your opinion online just to get validated? The netizen can be extremely toxic and entitled just because they are progressively moving forward with their the trends and agenda, from being able to share your thoughts of some latest issue turned out being accused of being racist, just because they said so - gay forum is the most toxic place ever existed to be honest. A lot of influencers love sharing what they eat or they do in a day, and their unsolicited opinion about themselves, anything but useful info. Sometimes I have the urge to leave a unsolicited comment on their post saying "Who gives a fuck?" in which I certainly am if I do that. 

I have moved away from most of the popular social media apps. The only one that keep me posted with the latest news and info is Facebook from my laptop. If FB were to be installed in my phone, I would definitely be absentmindedly scrolling away. Somehow, I can't help but to constantly hover the cursor over "Reels" tab, bombarding me with endless of sexy shirtless indian brown man "Desi Man" flexing or stripping in front of me, those thick and hairy chest and brown torso, the algorithm knows what I like and keeps feeding me with desi man clips, making me feeling hot and heavy all the time, which all the more reinforces my strong sexual appeal toward indian men.

Somehow this needs to stop. As in being addicted to "reels" generally. I am still finding ways to detach from FB as much as I could. But I am constantly tired from work. So just fuck it. 

Sexually Demanding Work

Dear Zach,

For the past two weeks, I have been very occupied with my new job, and I was always tired. Although the job is physically demanding, I managed to accustom with it. There were days that are unpleasantly long; There were also days that are surprisingly short.

My libido somehow has not fallen short in relative to my demanding work. In fact, it exacerbated my sex drive. Last Tuesday, I finished my work earlier than usual, I went to Chakran eager to get fucked. And I did get fucked. Greatly. Raw. From the steambath to the open shower. I was so ecstatic because it has been so long since I last getting bred by an indian bear. We had an amazing sex session. He wanted to exchange number. But I politely declined. Also, I managed to suck off 7 inches big cock by an indian daddy in the steambath. That night ended all well for me. A load in my ass and another one in stomach.

Last night, I went to cruise at Dead Hill again. I didn't expect much. Since I've had a rested sleep the night before, I thought of giving it a go to that place. Half an hour into cruising the hill, I managed to hook up with a stocky malay. Amazing kisser and sucker. He fucked me behind an empty hut, me bending over the railing letting him using my hole, while I enjoyed the dark scenic forest view in front of me.

Once we were done, we parted ways and I tried to look for another encounter. But it started drizzling, I went to the hut by the lake to rest. A chinese guy came by and approached me. I gave him a blowjob. Then, another fellow saw us, came by, and joined us. He took over my place and sucked the chinese guy. Then another and another joined us. Then there was this skinny guy and me getting left out. But I managed to suck a smooth 6 inches dick by him. I thought he was a chinese. He told me he is a Malay. His smooth dick makes all the senses now. I asked him if he wanted to fuck me. He agreed and I pulled him aside, a few feet away from the crowd, and did the deed behind the hut. The chinese guy seemed to have finished off. He saw us fucking by the wall, he came over wanting to join us. Somehow he sensed he wasn't quite welcoming, he left. The malay guy pulled out and took off the condom, telling me he was about to cum. We cum together hard. Once we were done cleaning up, I kissed him for the good fuck and left with pure satisfaction. Although I am, still, not a fan of malay guys, I find that malay guys are more than willing to fuck an ass. I can't be picky enough since my main intention to cruise is to get dicked down in my ass. That's all.    

  

Trio-bj

Dear Zach,

Although my new line of work has been extremely physical tiring, some days I finished off earlier by 5 pm and went home. Few days ago, after I've had my dinner, I decided to give another chance going to Dead Hill to cruise. Since it was weekday, I guess there would be a handful of guys cruising around. And security would unlikely patrol the hill.

When I arrived the entrance of the park, a new fence was up with a big iron gate. It was unlocked and left ajar. Then, I saw a notice attached on the gate, telling the passerby to be cautious of construction works going on. Rumor has it that the hill gonna be demolished and will be developed into some estate.

I walked around in the dark up to the hill top. Only a few hanging around. I walked down the hill to the tombstone area just to rest because I was really tired from walking all day during my work. Later, I managed to hook up with two guys at once having a trio blowjob in open view at some corner. Two of them were good-looking. One chinese and one mix (ind/malay?). They both came but I did not. Before they both left, they asked if I was new coming to this hill since they never saw me before.

I spent a few moment hanging around making out with the chinese guy by the stairs where the cruisers walking up and down and watching us.

I kissed him good bye and left.