A jinx or a curse

Dear Zach,

Seven years ago, when I bought my first car, I was working as freelancer. My income wasn't stabilized at that time. Since it was a brand new car, I decided to work as e-hailing driver to supplement my income since the registration at that time was smooth sailing without much requirements - all you need is a valid driver license, identity card, and car grant. I set up the driver's account within a day. The next day, I started driving and picking up passengers. Fast forward one month later, the government decided to introduce a new policy whereby all the drivers must comply to mandatory car-inspection, obtaining e-hailing driver's license, and purchasing an add-on insurance for e-hailing. I was pretty upset at the news because I just started out and here came a bunch of burdening regulation we would have to comply. The regulation was enforced 2 month later after the news announced. I have already quit by then.

Now, I have started working as a delivery driver 2 months ago. Again, all was well, I was pretty contented, until the war broke out, oil price surged, which in turn rendering all the price of petrol in the world shot up double amount as before. Although the government has subsidized almost 50% of the price with a fixated amount of 300L per month for each of us 2 months ago, this month they decided to make a u-turn and reduced the amount to 200L per month because they can. As a delivery driver myself, even though I work only for a few hours, 200L per month is literally not enough.

My car feeds on 20L of petrol per pump at the price of RM40 (unsubsidized price for now = RM80). I would need 10 pumps to fulfil the quota. Therefore, I need to carefully plan for my trips for delivery so that I can make it last for at least 3 days before next pump. I am not so much worried about my earning now, I am more concerned about the gas price directly inflicting my earning.

You see, whenever I start to feel comfortable working on something, an unpleasant event would come along right after, as if it is waiting for me and snatch away my happiness. Am I jinx or what? 

     

Greeting in Undie

Dear Zach,

This afternoon, I've accepted a job to deliver a few boxes of alcohol to a rich neighborhood in Bangsar (a.k.a the beverly hills) where I have to drive into small tiny road and hills and turning sharp cornering. It is nice to explore some part of neighborhood in KL I've never gotten the chance to do so.

After 30 minutes, I've arrived an area where it shaped like a cul-de-sac - all these fancy big houses at the middle, small modern houses at the side along the round shape. I circled to the back and reached at the customer's drop off point. I was told at the pick-up point that the customer is an expat - not suprising because this place is where most of the expat would live in.

When I arrived at his gate, the expat greeted me in his boxer. Literally a very short boxer. Fortunately, he was wearing a shirt but that itself didn't do much of covering, partly due to his tallness in which it makes him look like he was wearing a brief. I have to admit he has a great ass. As he came closer to help me out to unload,  I took a quick look of his feature - he was bald with nose and ear piercing, a small moustache above his lips, he looked a mix of arab and white. And he was definitely gay. Who in the hell would someone greet a delivery rider in a boxer? I am not sure how these expat live and greet people, but this surely isn't the way our local greet a stranger. lol.

After finished unloading, I quickly left for another job before the traffic started building up.

Cont. Dying Friendship

Dear Zach,

A continuation of the "dying friendship" post I wrote last month. After 2 weeks, he decided to text me again - asking if I want to come over to his place (for sex). 

I did not reply him yet because I was in the hurry to get ready for work. 

I guess he is out of bottom to choose or he has fucked every bottom he could in his area, therefore I am his last option to booty call.

What do you think I should reply with? Because I am planning to say "no" to going down to his place due to traffic reason. 

Drought

Dear Zach,

As a person who has been sexually active in hook up apps and gay sauna, in which both of them have been now regulated in my country, I have been a very docile in my current situation. I did have sex this month with a pakistanis top who, occasionally, dropped by my area for a night before he departed to Penang for work. It was a hard pounding which I always prefer. And that was the best pounding I received for the month. I did download back grindr to assess how bad the guys selection - it was as terrible as it was before I deleted it 3 months ago. Small radius of men showing, probably less than 20 boxes of profile on my search feeds if I toggle the "online only" option, and plenty of malays in which I don't want to do anything with them.

I was debating to go to gay sauna again. Otot2 is completely closed for good since the directors of the business were charged in court. And there is a new gay sauna in town popping up and the price is ridiculously high. My favorite sauna Chakran is still opened for business as I passed by when I was doing delivery at the area. I am glad because I really do miss going there sucking big black indian cocks.

However, with the surging of oil and gas price, I can't afford to drive to anywhere else except saving the petrol for delivery works only. The price of the petrol for my car is insane. Even my daily wage from the delivery work could barely cover. I think it is time to reassess my monthly expenditure and start cutting cost for unnecessary spending like massages.

The heatwave in my country is at warning level now. Every where is so dry and hot, same like my sex life in drought.      

Gaining Popularity in Asian/White Profile

Dear Zach,

Back in the days when I was still doing OF and sex for living, my twitter feeds used to be filled with homemade gay porn. As I was scrolling down, I came across this post where this effeminate petite chinese bottom posing on four in front of the camera with his back arching, accentuated his clean shaven round ass as the focal point. I clicked into his profile and browsed through his posts. Most of his videos or photos were taken without showing his face. But his signature bob hair with slender body was what I can concluded that he was a certified pure bottom with a great ass-set. He is a local guy staying at what seemed to be a fancy condominium or hotel as from what I observed from his videos.

As I was scrolling down more deeper of his older posts, I came across one of his post where a big white cock sprawled on top of his round ass. A few more of this kind of photos or videos uncovered from the loading feeds - some were teaser of a few seconds clip. I curiously clicked into this white guy profile tagged in his posts. Soon enough, I found out this white top is the partner of the local chinese bottom. Or partner in crime at least. Every post he showed off his big 7 inches white cock, some were waving it at the bottom's ass like a prelude to the heavy action, and some videos were taken from the top view where the bottom sucking his dick. Every posts of his received great response with high counts of likes and retweets in contrast to his bottom partner. Every one seemed to favor this white guy dominating the bottom - a very typical asian/white gay porn scene. Needless to say, their OF are fairly popular amongst the local.

I was jealous; Jealous not because I wasn't able to hook up with a white guy; I was jealous because they worked their way up in breeze because of their racial profile and people love them. You see, that's the white guy's effect to the asian people. When a white guy enter the local scene, everyone is jumping on him because he is either rich or with big dick or both.

There was another local chinese gym fit guy who was fairly popular on IG. Not until he hooked up with a skinny white guy, his twitter became very popular for the next few weeks. He didn't post much on twitter, but when he did he post some part of his sex clips with his white boyfriend, a teaser to his onlyfans. As expected, his posts received so much tractions, same went to his IG where he showed off his newfound relationship with his white boyfriend, travelling around the globe and shit.

You see, all we need, as local gay guy, a white guy then we are set for life.

 

Is stripper broke from the start?

Dear Zach,

I have always been wondering how these strippers in the club can get jacked and leaned when their financial strains limiting their access to nutritional foods. Not many man would opt for being stripper as their full time job if they haven't been in a dead end of life - as what I always watch in tv shows where these men are broke and homeless, in which they then turn to working as stripper to fulfill end meets.

Realistically, no broke man ever is jacked with muscles. What we learnt from tv show is a far cry from the reality itself. A broke man has already limiting access to basic food, let alone hitting the gym and getting adequate amount of protein to maintain the size of muscles. In reality, those men who works as strippers are already in great shape prior to performing in the club - some are gifted with good look. Which means these men are financially independent but their income is somewhat instable. Hence, they make use of their assets to make money. Just like how Onlyfans works.

I am watching Beauty in Black in Netflix, and those strippers in it are in financial debts and forced to work in the black-owned strip club. But their body are leaned and toned and amazing. This itself has confused me. If you are in debts and have no money, how are you gonna get money to buy food and get in shape?

To be in shape, in my own opinion, is never cheap. It is a somewhat expensive lifestyle one has to make sacrifices to be in it.

On the other note, I love watching these black guys in BIB. It enforces my strong interest in black-skinned man and no doubt my lust and love toward them is all the more fonder. In Malaysia, you could hardly find black negro walking around unless you go to a specific area of the town where these immigrant usually stay. I still remember there were a few occasions in the past years having sex with some black guys from Africa and I was in awe of their BIG BLACK COCK.

Dying Friendship

Dear Zach,

Nothing is more infuriating than receiving a text message from Sham but leaving you hanging just like that. The last time we exchanged text was last December. And he was quite monotonous to every text I wrote. After that, we didn't keep in touch. Although he has temporarily transferred his medical practice to KL for 6 months since last November, we have not met up for any occasion yet. Neither both of us initiate for a meet up. Since he lives in the town center, where the traffic is congested and parking spot is limited, he knew me damn well I wouldn't travel all the way to downtown for a "meet up". 

Our last sex was quite awkward for both of us. Therefore, I am not surprised he didn't even bother to initiate a meet up while he is in downtown. I guess that was the last straw of trying to win me over. Or, at least, we could catch up with each other lives without having sex.

Fast forward to this morning, I got a text from him. But I didn't reply instantly but waited til later. I was being courteous to him. I did not tell him anything about my current event. If he is interested and intends to keep the conversation flowing, he would have asked more. But he did not. He put a full stop there with a "yep". I did not try to query further because I don't want to be the one who asks all about him.

So he left it there. That's that. It is tell-tale sign that this friendship is dying. Nevertheless, I couldn't be bothered much now. After all, I am perfectly capable being myself without friend. 

 

The White Supremacy

Dear Zach,

Recently, I realized I am no longer into many aspects of life that I find it quite worrying as, you know, life may have changed you. 

I am no longer finding men from the west side of the globe attractive - white, tall, killer-edge jawline, lean muscly toned physique that the quality is a great fit for pornstar. Whenever they come to the Asian country, I find that they are always being repugnant and conceited and disrespectful, thinking they are superiorly white with big cock and gifted body, and their strong currency exchange against ours, making them feel like they are the elite people in the third world country. Somehow, these white guys love coming to Asia making social media contents and the locals favor them so much just because they are white. Trying finding an indian native making contents, I can guarantee nobody would bat an eyelid.

I used to really look up to them. I was lucky enough to have sex one time with an American when I was doing sex for living years back. Fast forward now, with all these social media exposure on how the white people from the west be making good use of their good look and hot body to pull some stupid stunts for views and likes, dancing in their skimpy thong in front of the camera desperate for attention, thinking that they are entitled to behave like a total idiot in front of the camera in the name of content creation, and hoping to get famous overnight, it makes me wonder why people love watching them "grow". 

I may sound biased. But, most of the reels contents saturated in my FB feeds itself have already proven so much for the facts I have mentioned above. Everyone is so desperate to be famous and earning easy money by working in the least amount of efforts. The more I come across it, the more I starting to hate it. I try to hide these contents but to no avail. It seems like FB love borderline sexual contents from the west.

It is not like I am hating on these white guys. It is just that they are leaving so much bad impression on the social media it starting to make me doubt if they are from the "best" country in the world.