My regular tops are 2 Pakistanis men

Dear Zach,

Guys in hooking up apps find it weird when I tell them my regular tops are Pakistanis men. They always think that my sex partner must be a gym fit man from local. Now they mention it, I do find it funny how my sex life turns out to be these days. I do not have sex frequently this year. When I do, I only have sex frequently with Karim. I keep track of the guys I met up for sex in an excel sheet, turns out I've had sex with Karim 11 times this year itself. With Taif, we've met 3 times this year - the latest we met was a month ago. If he worked around my area like he used to, we would have had sex frequently as much as twice a month. These 2 Pakistanis men are my regular tops now. I am not lacking of options, I just prefer men whom I am already comfortable with without exploring the new likings of a new top. I believe both of them have their options too.

Few nights ago, after sex, I sent Karim home, I asked him how long have we met since and he told me almost 2 and half year. He got my contact from his peer whom I've had sex with once. I must have been a great bottom to his peer or else he wouldn't have recommended me and spread my contacts around amongst his peers. When I first met him, he was very inexperience in sex. He said he did have sex with man in Malaysia, a guy from Tiktok he met, but not very often like how we are now. I must have guided him well enough. He is getting pretty good at it now.

Taif is an outright playboy persona when I first met him. We met 4 years ago. Our first sex meet up was at his room where his friend and him were awaiting my arrival after a few moments of quick chat in Grindr. It was a turn-taking sex - once his friend was done, Taif entered next. We met quite frequently that time. Probably once a month. With him and his friend. Eventually, his friend left town for work in another city, only Taif and I were still seeing each other. There was one time after sex, we sat by his bed, we tried to have a conversation, because he has limited knowledge in speaking Malay nor English, we resorted using Google translate from Urdu to English and vice versa. He told me his plenty encounters with local bottoms from Grindr; Some were nearby; Some were in town. He even had a threesome! Since he was sexually active, I told him to play safe by wearing a condom. He didn't seem to understand at first, but I tried to explain the risk of getting STD/HIV thoroughly with hand gesture so that he could roughly understand. He was pretty guilty to admit when he said "I didn' wear condom." "You must. Cause you fuck a lot of guys." I said. Until now, I still insist on wearing condom with him, despite he claims he did not meet anyone else since he is inconvenient and always at work. Thank God, he found me back in Grindr last year after I decided to reinstall it for a moment. So happened he dropped by in my area for a few days before he left for work in other city. 

      

Vicious Cycle

Dear Zach,

After expressing my frustrating experience in my previous post about the verdict of being a courier, I think of looking for another courier company to work with. But, when I come to think of it, it will be the same vicious cycle all over again. Working as a last mile courier, when the parcel is entrusted to you, you are solely responsible for anything could or would likely have happened to the parcel.

There are only 3 Chinese working in the hub as courier. I am relatively close to one of them who is a married lady. She is one month senior than me, but both of us have the same frustration and disappointment towards the policy of the company in which we both often vent over the voice chat in whatsapp. That brings us slightly closer as co-workers. We talk shit about the people in the hub, giving pointers on how the parcel should be sent, how the company is taking advantage of us by falsely deducting the monetary loss as they please under our accounts.

I even consult Gemini for this matter. With all the list of comparison, all of these courier jobs are marked as high risk of penalties, high parcel volume, high physical toll, and low payout. How surprising. Right now, my plan is to do the minimum work safely to collect baseline income, rather than pushing myself to physical exhaustion just so those fuckers can dock my pays as they like. 

I could have moved on and find any job to work temporary. But this is the only job that fits perfectly with my morning gym routine. I will not trade off my time of working out in the morning with a subpar job that pays peanuts in return. I have been doing this routine for years, I will not change it ever. I will have to search for a fitting job for that.

If you were to ask me what skill do I have? I really don't know. 

 

Getting Fondling Hard And Karim's Sex Improvement

Dear Zach,

I went to Chakran yesterday evening to release all the stress I have been harboring. Unfortunately, the steam room, my favorite part of the room, is out of service. Since I was there, I really needed to suck indian cock, I paid for my entry.

The steamroom was not functioning but there were sounds of sucking and moaning inside there. I was the only Chinese amongst the brown crowd. I went into the dark steamroom and sat at the tile bench waiting for action to be happened. Before I knew it, I was making out with this indian skinny daddy, then there was this bald gym fit hairy guy fondling and eating out my chest. Our trio action attracted some other patrons. I was the center of the attention, my ass was ravished by two of them in taking turn, then one was sucking my dick at front, another one eating my ass out like it was a meal.

"This is gold." One of the them said while squeezing my ass hard. I was elated at the comment. My hardwork in the gym is showing off and they love it. Other than that, my pecs seemed to be the center of attention for them that night. Every indian man I sucked, they fondled my pecs so hard it hurts. And they couldn't stop sucking them either. Another win that my efforts in growing my stubborn chest is slowly paying off.

I managed to suck plenty of big indian cocks last night and was so happy I did. I needed that.

I went home and got a text from Karim asking for sex meet up at my place later at night. After my dad asleep, I brought him into my room as usual. This time he shaved down there clean for me. I could still smell the scent of shaving cream when I brought my nose close to his dick, giving it a peck, sucking his balls, and ravish his entire shaft love. I was glad he is now being caring and considerate for me. What surprised me was that he starting to fuck me skillfully. He knows exactly how I like it in getting pound. I can't help but turned around and gave him peck asking him if he is secretly fucking others to improve himself. Maybe he did. I don't know.

       

The Verdict Of Working as Courier

Dear Zach,

Three months into working as full time courier, I finally realize the reasons behind of having massive shortage of courier in almost every logistic company.

Imagine this: You are spending an hour daily sorting all big bulky parcels and flyers before loading them into your car boot. Each parcel you earn is RM1. You require great stamina to carry 1 full bag of flyer parcels hooking on your elbow while holding two 5 kg of boxes climbing up those nasty, wicked-moisture, and dead rat smelly stairs in the rundown neighborhood. You diligently send all the parcels. But you end up getting a ticket for missing parcel due to buyer's negligence. Since buyer is ALWAYS right, you have to pay for the loss in the end even though the fault is not on you. In the end of the month, you barely achieve a salary close to RM2K. You are getting paid peanuts yet there are false deductions on your account because they can.

The supervisors are such an asshole. Instead of assisting you in matters, they put the blame on you. Of course, I am not going to settle without putting up a fight for myself.

I am tired. Physically. I work hard in the gym to achieve my desired physique and work smart during the day delivering. In the end, you getting accused for the fault you never did. Since I have converted to Part Time now, I think I should start working like a Part Time instead of getting taken advantages of being treated like Full Time Courier.

I am not nice to begin with. Now, I can be a bitch if I need to.

I am really at loss now. What should I do? What work should I do now? Should I even quit? Again? For the umpteenth time? What did I ever do to deserve this? :(

  

Sloppy Mouth

Dear Zach,

I have been seeking comfort release at the expense of this Chub masseur whom I met and gave me great head after a few sessions of massage last year. His studio is relatively near to my house. And his sloppy mouth always gives me a hard-on. Since I am on tight budget going to Chakran, going to him for a release is not such a bad idea as he is more than willing to give me head on the weekly basis.

"I only do it for you." His mouth is sleeked of his own spit and rubbing against my saliva-drenched dick.

I have been going to him for 3 weeks straight now. Each time I manage to last slightly longer under his wet mouth. It is a great practice getting edged to delay ejaculation. To beat the best, you must meet the best. In this case, a sloppy wet mouth is my kryptonite - not only on my dick but eating my ass.

Unfortunately, he has a small dick, therefore fucking me is out of option. I don't think he has ever fucked anyone or has sucked anyone per se. But he seems to know how to give great head.

On the side note, Ben texted me out of the blue while I was gaming on my phone. His whatsapp username popped up in my notification, and I knew it was him because he uses his own name as username.

"hi, where at?" Ever so nonchalantly.

He misses us. The sex. My ass. The hard pounding he's giving and me taking him. The mindblowing sex that both of us can't seem to resist.

And he thought I would cave in. Sadly, I did not. In fact, I told him that I am not interested in him anymore after telling me he was not keen in meeting me last time.

I think he was surprised. I am glad he is eating his own spit back. 

   

Video recording is the new foreplay practice

Dear Zach,

Living in 2026 now, video recording of everything has become a norm. Not to mention video recording your intimate bed time session is now becoming a new foreplay material in your phone gallery.

Ten years ago, I did my first sex video clip and it was thrilling and I was afraid at the same time, thinking what if the video leaked and it would be all over the internet. Suffice to say that with the screening of my ass getting pound by a big dick, it could have been anyone.

Fast forward today, every gay guy must have been holding a share of their own sex videos in their phone. It is a trend heavily influenced by X - since most guys turning to X for fast track gay porn clips. Then, people start to share their own clips, getting a good traction and followers by massive amount of retweets, it has become an addiction of making more own sex tape and upload it for the chase of short term fame and validation. That was me back in the days I was doing OF. Everyday I woke up, seeing my followers increased by another one thousand because of my sex videos, the feeling was euphoric. I craved for more attention, more likes, more validation, thinking my ass was making me gay-porn-famous in the local scene.

Now, The Blowers website is a solid proof that making own sex video is no longer a taboo thing to do. X is the gay favorite platform to share. People are no longer afraid of the consequences. Courtesy to the influence of Western practice, sex video recording has become a part of the foreplay now.

I rarely do video while having sex now. Even if i do, it is just only a few seconds of the best angle for the me to keep.

Even after leaving the OF scene for many years, I am still recognized by a few gay guys in the Blowers. I did not know I still hold a lasting impact in their mind. Not sure if I should be happy or sad. There is a saying "Whatever you post in the internet, it will remain forever." 

     

Is wearing a condom becoming obsolete?

Dear Zach,

My question abovementioned comes from after 3 days of being on The Blowers and observing those profiles with their dick and mortar as main profile picture, followed by a carousel of their own prize-winning bareback sex videos, and reading the overly-praised testimonials about how this top giving them the best fuck of their life or how this bottom giving the best sloppy bj and cumming for the 3rd time in one session. Too fake to be true because I have come across with this buffy guy amongst the profile and realized I have hooked up with for a few times before, and his dick is below average, the sex was subpar at least. Somehow, the guys in this website boosted him like he is an alpha top.

For real, the amount of the amateur sex videos I have watched from this website is more than enough than signing up for X account. In fact, almost most of the users linked their X account on their profile, needless to say, it must be their alter ego.

What truly concern is that bareback sex has become a norm now. It is not something to be aware of the risk. With the existence of PreP and deoxy pep, guys are becoming more proactive in taking it just to ditch the usage of condom. The question: How many of them are truly taking it or how many of them are lying about taking it? Do they simply trust a stranger claiming they take precaution just to have the moment of pleasure? I still have yet found any video showing the most backdated safe sex practice - sex with condom.

I stated in my own profile that I do not do raw sex. This is why after 3 days being there, I have yet managed to hook up with anyone. There are a few prospects. But the conversations go cold afterwards. 

The Blowers

Dear Zach,

I have been having hard time finding new tops since grindr was banned, and trying my best to find time to go to Chakran. But my working hours sometime exceeded and, by the time, I was done delivering parcels, I was dead tired. I did have sex last week with Karim (regular Pakistanis top) after a month of not meeting up. We've had great session as usual. But, for me, having sex once a month is little bit too less.

Today I happened to stumble upon this website posted by one user in the local gay forum, called The Blowers. It is a grindr version website, where your nude and sex videos are allowed to be uploaded in your profile for public viewing and enticing. Pretty simply layout and interface. Surprisingly, there are plenty of local guys there! I signed up immediately and browsed through the profiles showing on my radar.

Most profiles are filled with their own big dick picture for tops while the bottoms' profile are ego-boosted with their own cock-sucking videos and pictures of pride-earned big dick in their mouth. It is like X combined with Grindr to produce this website. What couldn't be more worst is that your profile are allowed to leave testimonials by those encounters you've had with other members. I am unsure if this is a good move for people to leave comments about your bed skills just to get validated. I feel anxious reading all these good testimonials about those bottoms who give great bj to those big-dicked tops. It is as if they are too good to be true. The more profiles I come across with, the more anxious I feel about myself. What if I wasn't really that good in sucking as claimed by most of the guys I've had encountered with from the past? What if I wasn't really that good in taking big dick and got left bad testimonials in my profile? What if I needed to upload my own sex videos just to prove myself? It is not like I haven't done it in the past. 

This testimonial part is certainly an ego-booster for the user himself, but it also place an imminent stress hovering you. Imagine someone breed you and left a google review about your hole.