Is stripper broke from the start?

Dear Zach,

I have always been wondering how these strippers in the club can get jacked and leaned when their financial strains limiting their access to nutritional foods. Not many man would opt for being stripper as their full time job if they haven't been in a dead end of life - as what I always watch in tv shows where these men are broke and homeless, in which they then turn to working as stripper to fulfill end meets.

Realistically, no broke man ever is jacked with muscles. What we learnt from tv show is a far cry from the reality itself. A broke man has already limiting access to basic food, let alone hitting the gym and getting adequate amount of protein to maintain the size of muscles. In reality, those men who works as strippers are already in great shape prior to performing in the club - some are gifted with good look. Which means these men are financially independent but their income is somewhat instable. Hence, they make use of their assets to make money. Just like how Onlyfans works.

I am watching Beauty in Black in Netflix, and those strippers in it are in financial debts and forced to work in the black-owned strip club. But their body are leaned and toned and amazing. This itself has confused me. If you are in debts and have no money, how are you gonna get money to buy food and get in shape?

To be in shape, in my own opinion, is never cheap. It is a somewhat expensive lifestyle one has to make sacrifices to be in it.

On the other note, I love watching these black guys in BIB. It enforces my strong interest in black-skinned man and no doubt my lust and love toward them is all the more fonder. In Malaysia, you could hardly find black negro walking around unless you go to a specific area of the town where these immigrant usually stay. I still remember there were a few occasions in the past years having sex with some black guys from Africa and I was in awe of their BIG BLACK COCK.

Dying Friendship

Dear Zach,

Nothing is more infuriating than receiving a text message from Sham but leaving you hanging just like that. The last time we exchanged text was last December. And he was quite monotonous to every text I wrote. After that, we didn't keep in touch. Although he has temporarily transferred his medical practice to KL for 6 months since last November, we have not met up for any occasion yet. Neither both of us initiate for a meet up. Since he lives in the town center, where the traffic is congested and parking spot is limited, he knew me damn well I wouldn't travel all the way to downtown for a "meet up". 

Our last sex was quite awkward for both of us. Therefore, I am not surprised he didn't even bother to initiate a meet up while he is in downtown. I guess that was the last straw of trying to win me over. Or, at least, we could catch up with each other lives without having sex.

Fast forward to this morning, I got a text from him. But I didn't reply instantly but waited til later. I was being courteous to him. I did not tell him anything about my current event. If he is interested and intends to keep the conversation flowing, he would have asked more. But he did not. He put a full stop there with a "yep". I did not try to query further because I don't want to be the one who asks all about him.

So he left it there. That's that. It is tell-tale sign that this friendship is dying. Nevertheless, I couldn't be bothered much now. After all, I am perfectly capable being myself without friend. 

 

The White Supremacy

Dear Zach,

Recently, I realized I am no longer into many aspects of life that I find it quite worrying as, you know, life may have changed you. 

I am no longer finding men from the west side of the globe attractive - white, tall, killer-edge jawline, lean muscly toned physique that the quality is a great fit for pornstar. Whenever they come to the Asian country, I find that they are always being repugnant and conceited and disrespectful, thinking they are superiorly white with big cock and gifted body, and their strong currency exchange against ours, making them feel like they are the elite people in the third world country. Somehow, these white guys love coming to Asia making social media contents and the locals favor them so much just because they are white. Trying finding an indian native making contents, I can guarantee nobody would bat an eyelid.

I used to really look up to them. I was lucky enough to have sex one time with an American when I was doing sex for living years back. Fast forward now, with all these social media exposure on how the white people from the west be making good use of their good look and hot body to pull some stupid stunts for views and likes, dancing in their skimpy thong in front of the camera desperate for attention, thinking that they are entitled to behave like a total idiot in front of the camera in the name of content creation, and hoping to get famous overnight, it makes me wonder why people love watching them "grow". 

I may sound biased. But, most of the reels contents saturated in my FB feeds itself have already proven so much for the facts I have mentioned above. Everyone is so desperate to be famous and earning easy money by working in the least amount of efforts. The more I come across it, the more I starting to hate it. I try to hide these contents but to no avail. It seems like FB love borderline sexual contents from the west.

It is not like I am hating on these white guys. It is just that they are leaving so much bad impression on the social media it starting to make me doubt if they are from the "best" country in the world.

   

What's Next

Dear Zach,

I am starting to like my side gig as delivery man. Everyday I look forward to the trips I go whether it is a long or short distance journey. Although the fare is relatively low this month as the muslims are on fasting period during Ramadhan month, so the number of cars are relatively lesser compared to the previous months, which in turn leading the fare slightly lower than it is supposed to be.

I earn just enough to cover my daily expenses. Nothing much I could really spend on unless I have to use my bank saving. I am looking to get another side gig at night to supplement my day income - at least I could have some saving and breather to spend my money on. So far, there is not much of idea coming to me when comes to working at night. ChatGPT suggests me to do graphic designs and sell it on etsy. That is too competitive and I would need to have a large followers on social media, in which I have already quit. Most of the suggestions are just not in my favors and the market is too saturated. Every one wants to work online earning passive income but none of them really making any money out of it.

I am thinking I shall go back to sex for pay. Firstly, I would have to sculpt my body lean and toned before I decide to do it. I give myself a deadline til end of May - roughly 12 weeks to go - to reach my goal. I am starting to see some lining of my abs but hardly visible. I have been working on my diet regime and workout plan with ChatGPT and it has given me solid advices. I have been following its plan and it did work! I have the confidence I could achieve my hotshot sex body by end of May. Til then, I shall work on what I am doing now.

Reunited with my no.1 top

Dear Zach,

My head was laying on his right chest, listening to his heartbeat, my left hand reached over playing with his right nipple, while he was jerking off with one hand, and watching porn on X with the other.

The sex was as great as I could remember. It has been 10 months since we met up for sex. Just when I thought we were not gonna meet again, he texted me last week out of the blue. I have been awaiting for his text since I unblocked him last December. He told me he missed my ass so much and wanting to meet. In the end, we met up tonight at the usual motel we always go to.

We hugged for the longest time on bed before I proceed sucking his thick black cock that I've truly missed so much. After a few minutes of foreplay, I reached over the table and fished out a condom and put it on him. He didn't go against it. In fact, I did tell him last week that if we were to meet, we would have to play with protection. He was fine with it.

I turned around and started off with our favorite doggy style. He slid his thick black cock into me slowly, making sure I wasn't in pain, and he pulled out, and put it in again, just to ensure my canal was fully diluted for what was about to come next. He picked up his pace and started pounding me as hard as I've always love. My face was buried deep in the pillow as he pounded away. All the familiar senses flooded back to me. The way he grabbed my ass; the way he slammed his hips against my ass; the way I wanted it only he knows how, pushing in deep in to my slick, silky butt hole. The whole ass cheek slapping sound was all over the room. We changed a several position in his favors. No matter how he fucked me, my dick was always hard. In other word, he is the only guy who could make me raging hardon while he fucking me.

As he was doggy fucking me, he pulled off the condom and tried to enter me. As much as I wanted him raw inside me, I resisted and told me no. We used another condom and continued the fuck. He was panting as he pounded me hard from my back, I knew he was about to cum. I was waiting for his climax shot, but to no avail. He kept on pounding on, but still nothing. In the end, we took a breather and laid on the bed. "It's gonna take some time for me to cum ... you know... with condom ..." He said. I knew what his implication was. He can only cum when fucking bareback. I remained unfazed and laid by his side.

As he was jerking off furiously while watching those porn clips on X, he cum without warning. I sat up and went to the bathroom to clean up. We exchanged a few words about our lives. He has a girlfriend now. But still hasn't fucked her yet.

It was great to meet him again. Somehow, with all the familiarities we both share in sex, I felt like we have drifted apart in certain ways. As much as I wanted to have bareback sex with him like we used to, I still don't trust him that much.  

Shutting Them Down

Dear Zach,

The government is seemingly making a move to shut every gay social apps in the country. The first step they did is to block access to Grindr and Blued on website - the news just came in today. This is my first time knowing that Grindr can be login via website. But who accesses Grindr through website anyway? They are also taking proactive measure in examining legal options to curb their mobile applications.

It comes as no surprise they decide to ban these apps after the epic raiding of gay sauna in the last November. It is the last straw for them to cut off all the relating LGBT stuffs in tangible sense. There are a few unpopular gay sauna still operating - I just went to one of them last week in daytime. It is just matter of time they will be closed or another raid to force it shut.

I also can foresee that, in years to come, the LGBTQ community would find it hard to seek same-sex sexual partners without the existence of gay dating apps. As a gay man who has been an avid user of grindr for years, I would be damned if they ban it. Going to pubs or club is not my thing nor any place with large crowd. Cruising in public toilet would be damn risky to do so, despite I love the thrill of it. 

What are the options available for a gay man to meet other man in same mind alike?

Reunited With The Regular Pakis Top

Dear Zach,

It has been almost 2 years since I've met this regular pakistanis top. He used to holler me over to his room every other week to fuck me and sometimes he would invite a few friends of his taking turn to fuck me after one has done. After some time, he has left for new work opportunity in Penang. He would come back to my area occasionally to visit his mates and asked me over. And that was almost 2 years ago.

Last Sunday, I downloaded Grindr just to look around. Within seconds, the closest profile messaged me with raw unedited long dick picture. Then, he showed me his picture and asked if I still remember him. Of course I do remember him - he's the only pakistanis who sucks dick, kisses, and does rimming. By far, he is my favorite top. He told me he bought a new phone after he lost his previous one and all contacts were gone. Hence, he couldn't contact me and tried hard finding me in Grindr. That day was his lucky day I guess. 

I met him at my place that night. He is still lean and slim. His hair is still slick and luscious as usual. But he got so tanned and his skin shows the sign of working tirelessly under the hot sun. We stripped naked, his 7 incher already hard, and we got closed and moved our heads closer. We embraced and hugged for the longest time ever. As if we were a long time friend who went missing for years. My lips engulfed his lips, tasting his smell of cigarette, and lust. His body is lean with strong abs though it is not visible. But I can feel it under my palm as I slid my hand across his stomach down to his 7 incher, and bend down and had him in my mouth. I sucked him so good because I haven't been able to suck dick for weeks and this was the biggest dick I've sucked since the beginning of the year, and I also missed him too.

I grabbed the condom and put it on him. I sat on him to expand my butt canal fully and deeply before he fucked me hard and deep as he always like. We switched to doggy style - our favorite. His both hands grabbed on my hips, his hips undulated as his dick sliding me in and out as I love. He picked up his pace and slamming me hard. He gave it all out as if it would be the last time we met. Meanwhile, I was face deep in my pillow, muffling my moan, letting all of his pounding yearning his favorite hole. As he started to pant, it was his sign of cumming, he embraced me hard from behind as he let out his orgasm.

After we were done, I drove him back and bid goodbye. We promised that we will meet again.

The length of my dick: For now

Dear Zach,

I am very surprised to have found out today that my dick is at 5.5 inches hard. Why am I surprised ? It is because, a decade ago, I measured my dick and it was at 6 inches at most. Now, as I age, it has become half an inch shorter.

Recently, during the usual jerk off session in the shower, I started to notice that my dick has become slightly shorter than usual. Just now before taking the shower, I made myself hard and measured it.

Now with the measurement I have, here I thought that jerking off everyday could make your dick longer or something. Turned out it wasn't. Unlike the muscles I train in the gym everyday, it won't grow because I beat it everyday. 

All the while I always thought I have the standard asian size of dick and was complimented by a few tops for having the potential of being a top. Even the bottoms I met in the sauna love sucking it.

I am truly horrified by the latest revelation that a part of myself shrink. Although I am not disappointed by it as I am a pure bottom myself and my ass, most of the time, is fully utilized during fornication, it does bruise my ego a bit knowing the truth.

Could it be that the bigger the dick I want from a top, the more it shrink?