Toxic Drivers

Dear Zach,

I have joined a delivery driver group community in FB and I have read a lot of experiences and encounters of others on how they overcome and diffuse the situation when shits hit the fan. Also, some interesting event unfold during the delivery process being shared so that other drivers can take notice. But, mainly, the group is just a bunch of whiny, angry, and low EQ drivers spreading their toxic negativity faith to others because of the low fare for drivers, complaints from customers, and undeniably injustice from the customer service to the drivers.

These kind of posts I would try my best to avoid reading it. Somehow, I can't stop myself but to read and understand the frustration and despair on what they are going through. The comments from other drivers don't really help much but to add more oil to the blazing fire itself, trying to justify their wrong to right just because they are unhappy with everything and everyone but themselves.

The more I read, the more I am influenced by them in terms of thought, mindset, and action. Like I am constantly angry - angry about over nothing. Like I always assume things happened to these drivers would someday happen to me. Like I always needed to raise up my shield against them when it happened. Despite I work 3 hours a day in the afternoon, my mind is fried from thinking all the possible forms of spiteful events if I deliver the goods late to the customers. 

Ever since I started to combine a few orders in one way delivery, the expected time to delivery has become slightly longer than usual. What was used to be 5 stars service now has drop to 4.97. I am no longer getting any review for my service. All that has ceased since I learnt how to combine orders and send in one shot. 

What can I do? The fare is bad and low, the only way to recoup is to grab a few orders combined and make the best out of it. Somehow this method has allowed me to go home much earlier, in which I have nothing to complain about.

I am not sure if the influence has anything to do with my frequent lash out at my dad or my dad has been very petulant with himself. His hearing is getting worst therefore I would raise my voice at him and lashing out my excess frustration simultaneously.    

This has been said for the umpteenth times - social media is extremely bad influence. I think it is time to avoid that group for a while now.