A Cycle

Dear Zach, 

New year started off fine. It's been 10 days from the new start, I was full-fledged working hard for five days in the office and gym. It's been pleasantly long week but it ended perfectly fine. Everyday I woke up, I was kind of looking forward to the dos in the office. It's not unusual for me, but it's pretty refreshing to the surprising fact that it gives me something to look forward to. I don't have the dreadful feeling of going to work - it's a good sign. I wouldn't say that I love my job now - at least it helps to settle myself down with a decent job, something to preoccupy with, that I don't have to think about what my future holds. I don't want to think about it. The more I think about it, the more I concern. And every time right after my work, I would be looking forward to the gym. Or maybe looking forward some unexpected hookup again in the shower room gym - but it wouldn't be the latter. It's basically a cycle for the week. I refuse to hang out because I refuse to show my state of being. Not that I look like shit. It's just that I feel lethargic to go out. My week is just another boring week. 

xx