Thursday, June 12, 2014

Am I Ridiculous?


Dear Zach,

It’s been a sad day. Not particularly because of the previous post I wrote about not being able to get the same love interest in return. (Well, I have to admit there’s tiny bit of it has to do with my sadness)

I was unsure where’s the root of the sadness come from.

It was just an indescribable feeling that waved over me. Even when I laugh I don’t feel like I was laughing for the sake of laughter.

I remember one of my reader sent me an email saying that I look sad when I am smiling.

I replied: “I’ve never been happy for a very long time.”

True enough. that’s the reason why my face is in a disaster state of acne. I’d never let it see the light of day.

I’ve debated it has to do with stress due to my ongoing final year project. Though I don’t feel like it.

I think it has to do with the playlist I have been playing all day long. Breakup/sentimental songs should have been slashed off from my playlist. It makes me even sadder than I already did.

Truth be told, it seems like whatever goods that ever come across me has always slipped away in instance, as though I’d never had a chance to grasp for a part of it.

There’s been a lot of things going on my mind and I couldn’t put my finger on it.

I don’t know why I am writing this post. It’s just ridiculous. I am ridiculous. Writing such ridiculous post for the sake of doing ridiculous thing.

This is really ridiculous. 



  1. We all do ridiculous things all the time. What you can do to help yourself is, have monologues with yourself. Stare in the mirror, talk things out with yourself. IT is ridiculous, so what's new right?

    It helps because things aren't revolving in your head, but it is being tabulated out in words. From there, give suggestions to yourself. make conversation with yourself. Let words speak, then you will know what to do next.

    If you have someone to talk to, why not? But we all know there are stuffs we ought to keep it to ourselves, and for me its the strength I seek in myself instead of in others for me to go longer in life.

    Then, do whatever that can take things off your mind. Working out, movies, dinner outside, cycle. Anything. It doesn't solve the root, but its better than letting the root seeps deeper.

    Try it out, then let's see if it works.

  2. A wise teacher once told me that if one steps on dung, one should dig it at our mango tree. We will get sweet mangoes thanks to the dung. So too, when unpleasant incidents happened in our life, we should welcome it as fertilizer for life. By digging it into the garden of our heart, one fine day, it will turn into miracles.

    I'm not trying to convert you, but hope the following talk by the same wise teacher above, might helps you :)

  3. Thanks for all the solution to my sadness y'all. Appreciate much.


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